Friday, April 30, 2010

Read Love Left to Lose Lyrics here.







ok, posting it here!

wala, sugoi to the max to, noh.

mamaya na yung rebellious entry ko.

jane!


ay lyrics i forgot..



Here it is
The last day of my life and I'm jumping in.
Here it is
One step into space and I'm falling in.
And I ain't gotta parachute,
I ain't gotta parachute
Like you,
It was you.

You and me,
We have our own world where I wanna be,
Oh when I'm hurting you
Then that world's hell and it's killing me
I'm living with an open wound,
Hoping that it closes soon.
I don't wanna leave,
But I should leave.
I hear you say,

(chorus)
Ohh, whatcha waiting for?
One more step and you're out that door
Ohh, whatcha waiting for?
All we've got is love left to lose.
[x2]

Let me know
Which side of the fence are you gonna go
'Cause I'm breaking down,
And I can't live in a house that don't feel like a home.
I know we got some life that's left,
And I ain't giving up just yet.
So give me a sign,
'Cause all I keep hearing in my mind is ...

(chorus)
Ohh, whatcha waiting for?
One more step and you're out that door
Ohh, whatcha waiting for?
All we've got is love left to lose.
[x2]

(bridge)
Look me in the eyes and tell me
What are ya feeling baby.
Don't you know you have my heart
And I could never walk away.

And I'll give all that I have
If I could only make you see that
You're the only one I want,
So please don't ever say ...

(chorus)
Ohh, whatcha waiting for?
One more step and you're out that door
Ohh, whatcha waiting for?
All we've got is love left to lose.
[x2]

last one!

I can really use a wish right now..


"after all this why, would you ever wanna live it, maybe you could not believe it.
that my love for you was blind, but I couldn't make you see it, couldn't make you see it..
that I love you more than you'll ever know, a part of me died, will I let you go.."


Blind, Lifehouse.



wala, I was once blinded.
ngayon self-realization to the nth time na!

"You and me,
We have our own world where I wanna be,
Oh when I'm hurting you
Then that world's hell and it's killing me
I'm living with an open wound,
Hoping that it closes soon.
I don't wanna leave,
But I should leave.
I hear you say"


-Love Left to Lose, Sons of Sylvia.


oh yeah this song really rocks!
grabe, positive note to the nth level, beybe!!!!



I heart the vocalist na..
woo. vocalist na, violinist pa. wala na, he's all that my guy na.
ano daw?
hay.....soo kawaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii..

iii..

wala.di ko alam. pero ngayon na lang to uli nangyari, eh.

grabe talaga kagabi.
napagkamalan tuloy akong kaya ako nag-eemo dahil sa hindi ako nakapag-net ng isang araw.

*susme ano bang pake ko kung hindi? eh dati namang walang ganyan, di ba. kaya ko naman. kahapon nga I spent my day watching Boys Over Flowers, eh. oo, BOF. inulit ko. miss ko na si ji hoo.. hahaha*


anyways.
grabe yung emotional level ko kagabe hindi ko talaga nakayanan.

imba, eh.
tapos ngayon 4.44 AM.



sabi ko sa yo bonipasya, eh!
nagkakadebelopan na yung dalawa.wag kang tanga ikaw alam mo yan.
ewan ko ha. pero peeling as in peeling ko talaga, sila na.

oh by the way.
wala. ayoko na.

grabe, last time I cried, kelan ba yun. I mean dahil sa pag-ibig, ha.
Last year pa ata! argh, can't remember na.

ayan. oo nga, eh. sya rin ata dahilan nun nung huli akong umiyak.

"I WON'T GIVE A DAMN. ANYMORE. P***. MAGSAMA SILA. IMPERNES."


hehehehe. ano to bitter?


"I WAS ONCE GOT HURT. BUT NOW I'M MOVING ON. THE HELL WITH YOU. DI KO SISIRAIN ANG PAGKAGANDA-GANDA KONG MUKHA PARA IYAKAN AT ISIPIN KA LANG SA MAGDAMAG. IN THE END, GOD WILL PROVIDE AND WILL GIVE ME THE BEST ONE, AND THE GOODBYES MEAN PURPOSE. A RESPONSIBILITY, AND A CHANGE. SAY WHAT? I'M WILLING TO WAIT WHO WILL BE THE NEXT ONE TO COME.."

-the better, i mean, the BEST QUOTE BONIPASYA HAS EVER CREATED FOR HERSELF..

*pumapalakpak pa mag-isa.
grabe walang exercise yan..

boo me. haha*

time to move on.

oo na it's time ngayon ko pa lang gagawin, eh.
hahaha.



ngayon pa lang talaga.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

paragraphs.

wala biglang pumasok sa utak ko.
ano nga ba ang talata?

ahm. base sa past studies *ehem, past study bonipasya*


ahm. paragraph should be written by this:

if you're writing a story, it has to have a flow, a sequence, and....
*aw nosebleed*

it should have..
introduction, body, conclusion or the ending point of the paragraph you're writing.


anong kaugnayan nito sa pangaraw-araw na buhay ng isang nagngangalang janina ana romero asuncion?


ahm ganito kasi yon.

of course, people at my same age are at the same part.
nasa body pa lang kami. or the story part, the climax, the 'turning point'.



ako kasi nasa turning point na, and I need to conclude it para matapos na ang istorya.
or should I say, nasa conclusion na ako at ayoko nang dugtungan ang kwento para matapos na?

ano daw?

anyways, only the self-centered one can decipher these words.
the same person as mine.


teka, meron ba noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooon???



i won't give a damn. NEVER!

and what the f*** am I still doing here?

*sarili ko nagtataka na bakit bigla akong ganito?
I mean, biglang galit, biglang dabog, naiiyak, naguguluhan.
ano to, act of desperation part 10000+++?
depression 3000000000++++?


o?
ops ayoko nang ituloy.*


walang dulot na maganda ang ginagawa ko.
mas maganda sigurong manahimik muna ako.l
grabe, ano ba kasi nangyayari sa aking kakagising ko lang ang bigat-bigat ng lalamunan ko, ng mata ko, lahat. gusto nang lumabas ng luha ko na kanina pa nagtitimpi sa mata ko pero fuck, ayaw talagang lumabas. ewan. nanginginig na naman ata ako.


bakit ba ganitoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo??




ok. ganito na lang.
haha. tawa na lang. sawa na akong umiyak.


ok. next entry na. wala akong maisip na isulat.

ok. enough. enough.

t******
ayoko na sabi eh..

*nagwawala na umagang-umaga.


pu*sometextmissing*na naman, eh.

*naiiyak, nagpipigil ng luha*


pu**
tigil na ok.
tigil na talaga.

*suicidal mode na.*


things NEVER TURN OUT the way it should be.

and now, I'm sooooo alone here, crying.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

wala rin naman akong magawa.

kasi wala na akong mapapala.

wala p******** ka naman bonipasya, eh.
wala ka nang karapatan.

walang-wala na talaga.
p******** talaga.


wala.
umiiral na naman yung bitterness sa akin.


the hell's gonna be with me soon.
minamadali ko na.

Monday, April 26, 2010

10 minutes!

to write everything here..

wala. wala akong maisulat na matino ano ba ito..

ok. better blog at tumblr na lang siguro.
sana lang kayanin ko ng ten minutes.

jane!
be back later.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

safe and sound.

dammit I miss his pms.
I mean, his group messages.

grabe. kabog eh!
he never fails.

sana makita ko na sya ulit sa 17.
dang. kasabay pala namin sila mag-enroll.
what the heck please kill me now...


wala.
ang saya.
ang saya ng araw pag may na-fulfill ka.

tama, tama..



andaming alam!

boo myself!
grabe di ko talaga alam na may nage-exist na ganun.
btw, 4.44 passed.
laman ng isip: comfort room!

wahahahahahahahahaha..

natatawa ako.
wait be back after a minute, magsasaing lang ako.

*after five minutes*

hahaha ang tagal.
today's the 'so-called uploading day!'

goodluck.
ja.ne!

Friday, April 23, 2010

I need to. and I have to.

grabe.. kabog talaga yung bedrock..

'call me mr. flintstone, I can make your bed rock!!!!''

*mas pina-exaj. kasi ako ang kumanta.. hahaha..*

grabe ang random talaga ng utak ko ngayon di ko alam kung bakit..

busy tumblr-ing around!!!

wala. pasiyahin lang sana ako ng bisyo ko..

"please share my umbrella.."

-pupil kumanta nito.. alam ko. boses ni ely buendia yon!

woops 1.11 ngayon sa blog time ko.
hmm. si comfort room ang laman ng utak ko..
hahahao.

"at the bus stop."
ano to sa manggahan?
kasi minsan pag gabi na ako umuuwi nagkakasabay kami.
hala ka bonipasya pati ba naman ito??

*and now it's getting late..
and I can't keep my eyes open
but my heart's open for you*
-Baby we're invincible, a rocket to the moon.

wala yan ang nag-play, eh. wtf.

hala, 4.22 na pala.

ano bang magandang gawin ngayon maliban sa isipin sya?

walangya..
baboo na..
andito na si unii..

I'm only human..

wala narinig ko lang sa radyo..

"I'm born to make mistakes"

tama, tama..

"so fine getting you away..??"
ano daw?

"wanted to be anything different everything you would change in me"

yan tama..


*listening to random music..
argh. miss ko na mag-download.
ang haba na ng listahan ko...*

oh wait may narinig akong cover ng 'don't go'..

'now I'm down on my knees, I'm begging you please, don't go'
ahaha. parang ang pogi naman ng nag-revive neto. ang ganda ng boses. haha. uuulam..

imba..

hmmm.. whatcha say..
love the acoustic. jive yung timpani.

wala share ko lang.

some random thoughts are running in my head right now. and I don't know the how-to's of dealing with it..


cool with you again..

kinakanta ni magaling na unii-san..

oh wait..

grabe reblogging mode muna ako ngayon sa tumblr.
tinatamad ako gumawa ng typog sa mga oras na to.

wala pa akong sapat na inspirasyon..


teka.
i must browse my favorite verses para may tema..

ano daw..?




ok.
ito na..



today's theme is..


"bitterness"











all time favorite theme..
woah yeah malamang marami akong magagawa nito mamaya.




diba diba diba..

support me..




*kalimutan ko. thanks, God for this wonderful day..*



nagugutom na ako..
gusto ko ng pocky.maraming maraming pocky..





ambisyosa walangya..

hahah..


sayonara..!!

Thursday, April 22, 2010

I remember the day....

woo ano to hanggang ngayon ba naman bonbon, ha??

ok.
these two bracelets..
galing yan sa taong minahal ko talaga.
sya yung taong.
nagturo sa akin kung pano maging stik to wan.
kaya nga one man-woman talaga ako, eh.
pero hindi dahil sa kanya no kapal naman.

ok.
wala.
naghahanap ako ng random pics, eh.
kaso yan ang nakita ko.
background image?
yun yung vintage 2009 diary ko.
wala nang 2010 badtrip, huhu.

lemme tell the story behind these two bracelets.
*supposedly, susuotin ko talaga dapat yan, kaso kasi nakamove-on na ako, eh, para san pa, di ba*

yung black and white:
alam mo kahit sampung piso lang yan as long as galing sa kanya ok lang.
-ganyan mindset ko noon.

binigay nya yata yan.
third year ako.
January 8? 15? 2008. o di ba two years na yan sa akin. haha.

nakalimutan ko na yung date, eh. haha.
basta he gave that nung cleaners kami tapos in-approach nya ako.
tapos sinuot nya sa akin a week after.
syempre, he's our SC president that time, so sobrang busy sya nun.
basta.
kinikilig?


o di ba.
tandang-tanda!!!

*lahat ng bagay na namagitan sa amin ay bahagi na lang ng alaala*


ok.
yung violet-green na.
regalo nya sa kin yun for my 16th birthday.
kaso September 27 na nya nabigay, saturday night.
kasama na pa si insan.
and then.
basta.
kinikilig ako nung binigay nya yan kasi nung isusuot nya yan sa akin biglang dumating si papa.
hahah.
tapos, basta.
bigla akong bumitaw eh mahirap na mahuli pa ako.
may card yan na kasama, eh.


lahat yan nakatago sa diary ko, no.
syempre.
di yan kasya sa puso ko.
ano, lunukin ko para magkasya?

basta, i remember the days talaga.

hindi nya sinabi, pinakita lang nya.
hindi sya nangako, pero ginagawa nya.

pero ngayon.

wala na.

lahat to bahagi na lang ng alaala.

bakit bawal bang mag-post ng ganito dito?
thisismybloganyway.



this entry is dedicated to the memory of:
JMP.
woah yeah initials na lang, bawal ang obvious!!!

the guy I loved for Four Years.
and now, I'm moving on!

salamat sa yo.

Dear JM,

teka, I'm not seeing you for like, a year.
i miss you by the way.
kwentuhan mo naman ako ng college life mo.
yung buhay mo pagkatapos nun.
at kwento mo naman yung girlfriend mo ngayon.
she's so kind.
nakikita ko sa mata nya.
pakilala mo naman sya sa kin some other time, ok?
kailan kaya kita makikita ulit?
thanks for everything.


love,
bonbon.
*signed*

hahaha..




my tutor friend the literal way part two..

minsan talaga may pagka-abnormal ako. and I'm so sorry.

ganito kasi yon.

actually, it was none of my expectation to be infatuated with him.

honestly, infatuation pa lang naman talaga eh.

ganun ang definition ng infatuation sa akin.
hindi ko kinakausap yung tao..
as in.
tsaka parang nangliligaw lang ako kasi ako yung hindi kumikibo.
natotorpe, kumbaga.
tsaka, ilang kung ilang, beybe!

woah yeah..


oh di ba.
infatuation pa lang yan. pano pa kaya pag nainlove na?

ahahah.
malabo nang mangyari yon..

sawa na talaga akong sumugal ulit..


oo na nga bon ikaw na!!!!


basta.
kaso ayaw nyang pumayag, eh.
di daw sya magaling magturo..
sus. di naman sya gagamit ng chalk at blackboard, ah para lang turuan ako.

what the heck.

hahaha.

basta natatawa lang ako..

grabe, this guy's a TALENT..

oo tama.
super talented walangya.

grabe.

parang hindi ako nagsisi dahil naging former crush ko sya. what the heck a million times.


ayoko na please..

kung natuturuan lang sana ang puso..

ok. lemme share the thoughts playing in my mind right now..

"bon, this guy's really a..
oo.. he's this, he's that.
pero bon. malayo at malabo ang taong yan"


part 2 - unreasonable..

"grabe, he's so watda..
hindi ko kaya yung ganitong uri..
oh wait, hindi naman sya alpha male, ah.
pero he moved my heart."






part three - comparing the past onto present:

"isa lang ang bagay na meron sa taong to na wala sa kanya:

marunong syang mag-japanese.
*alam mo, sabi ni unii, baka daw may google translator sya habang magkausap kami..*

sabi nya lang yun.
ako talaga yung tipo ng tao na mabilis maniwala, eh. haha. *

sira hindi lang yun!!

kasi..
ganito yun.
we started as total strangers.
*teka, wala pa ngang nasisimulan, ah. ang T mo bon, ah*

basta.
may iba sa kanya na hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa rin ma-identify.
ewan ko.

basta may 'something' sa kanya na napapa-'anything' ako.
ang haba naman ng part three..


part four: conclusion

" i have a crush on you.. i have to feel the way that I do."
tama ba lyrics ko?
grabe ang hina ko talaga sa memorization..



finish na tong entry na to.
nawawala na sa direksyon.

ok..

this entry is dedicated to my crush..

c..


c..

c..

c..


c..

itago na lang natin sya sa pangalang..



comfort room

ahaha. obvious to, ah!
p!@##$%%^^






my tutor friend the literal way part two..

my tutor friend the literal way.

OO NA.

sya na nga..


basta.
ewan..

habang lumilipas ang mga araw lalong lumalala... what the heck..

part two on going.

hay nakoooooooooooooooooo..

by silent sanctuary..

tapos this is war ng 30 seconds to mars.

*parang di bagay naman sa araw na ito..*

TGIF..

tgif talaga.
grabe puno ako ng motibasyon..

*tama yan bonipasya*


today's food for thought:

"mainis ka man ng mainis sa kanya..
kung mahal mo talaga sya,
kahit ilang beses ka bang badtripin nyan, ok lang*

oo kase miss ko na sya kaya badtrip ako ngayon..

inspired?

basta feeling ko inspired ako ngayon.

parang..

woah yeah go bon I know you will..


today is..

TYPOG MAKING DAY!!!!

*WOAH YEAH*

KASO MAMAYA NA LANG.

matutulog muna ako.
kailangan ko ng inspirasyon mula sa mga panaginip ko para walang sablay..

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

and when the lights go out...




lyrics here:

Do you remember the nights we
Stayed up just laughing
Smiling for hours at anything?
Remember the nights we
Drove around crazy in love?

When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream

Do you remember the nights we
Made our way dreaming
Hoping of being someone big?
We were so young then
We were too crazy in love

When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream

When the lights go out
(And when the lights go out)
We'll be safe and sound
(We'll be safe and sound)
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be
(And we'll be)

When the lights go out
(And when the lights go out)
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream

Monday, April 19, 2010

this one life-changing experience..

hmm kabog.
grabe kinabog talaga.

God really tested my faith yesterday..

super.
and my prayers worked, luckily.

ganito kasi yun.

okaa-san got sick yesterday.
parang yung naging sakit ko a year ago nung uminom ako ng fit and right.
*anyways, thank you fit and right dahil pumayat ako..*

grabe.
yung feeling na parang pinahihirapan na sya.
yung pakiramdam na..
kukunin na sya.
*sounds exaggerated, eh? pero syempre ako pa..*

kasi sino ba namang matutuwa na makita yung mother mo..
nanginginig.
nahihirapan.
umuungol.
parang..

argh.
pag nire-recall ko yung mga nangyari..
parang naiiyak na naman ako..

kinahapunan.
ayun nag-improve naman.
hindi na naglabas-pasok sa banyo si ina..


at dahil yun sa dalawang loperamide.

ay hindi.
nang dahil sa prayers ko.
at sa prayers na rin ni ina.


*hindi ko pinaakyat ng bundok si ina,no.*
-yun yung delusions nya kahapon.
while she was shivering cold.


hay nako.
tama yung sinabi ni ina the end of the day..

"BONBON, BUMAIT KA KAHAPON, AH.
NAGLINIS KA NG BAHAY.
BINANTAYAN MO AKO..
NATAKOT KA, NO???"

*oo naman, inay. kung nakita mo lang yung pag-iyak ko kahapon.*

and the line my mother used that made my life happier?

"SALAMAT,HA."

grabe napaiyak na naman ako kagabe.



ALAM MO YUNG PAKIRAMDAM NA FIRST TIME NA MAGTHANK-YOU SA YO NG TAONG MAHALAGA SAYO NG GALING SA PUSO?

honestly, kagabi ko lang na-experience yun..



hay.
may gazillion ways na ako para magthank-you kay God*


anyways.
this entry is dedicated to the best okaa-san in the universe.

and as I start to run I start to breathe....

and now I'm really scared to death..


-ang pinakamahabang kanta ng mayday parade..


things turned out to be like this..

mabagal yung tumblr namin, bwiset.
tapos ngayon andito ako sa blog ko.
hmm
I missed this..



Sunday, April 11, 2010

eff yeah

grabe.
kaya ayoko ng nao-obsess..
ang daming thoughts sa utak ko..

(na naman!)

kaya minsan pag ako naiinis.
ay naku.

ano kaya tong lifetime promise ko sa sarili ko matupad ko kaya?

alam kong napaka-imposible..

teka, teka.

ok.off to go.

sayonara.
ohaiyo gozaimasu!!


me likey!!

whoops.
ano to pa-coño kid effect??

haha.

woah. yeah.
wala nasisiyahan lang ako sa mga pangyayari..

APRIL 17??
*showing ng Nodame Cantabile The Final Score sa Japan*
yung part two..
at yung super last na na nodame live action.

parang "hay bon, hindi ka naman Japanese para mag-ambisyon ka ng bonggang-bongga dyan"

soon.

after 10, or maybe 15 years.

asa Japan na ako.

dun ko hahanapin ang sarili ko.
ahaha.
I mean.
doon ako magtuturo..

hindi dahil ang Japan lang ang makaka-fulfill ng POCKY pleasures ko.
kung hindi.

ang pakiramdam ko kase pag nakarating na ako dun..


"narating ko na ang kaganapan ng pagkatao ko"


woah yeah...

Friday, April 9, 2010

woah. yeah. woohoo!

grabe.
well-spent na nga!!

sayang naman.

re-editing our thesis later.
and typing the curriculum vitae of co-members as well..

grabe.
blessed si bonipasya ngayon.
kahit na medyo sawi sa pag-ibig.

haha..


ok.
ulit..

*mukyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!*


grabe imba ka talaga nodame cantabile..


sana maging akin ka.

(movie ito. bonipasya. malabo. sa japan ipapalabas pa lang ito sa 17)

kahit na..

haha..
buti na lang may 3gp format na ako.
grabe, nanakit kamay ko dun..



grabe.

not well-spent I guess.

grabe. almost FOUR HOURS ako dito sa PC!

and yet.
wala akong nagawa!

know what I did?

watching repeatedly those 'guilty pleasures'!

sa youtube.
mabilis naman kase kahit papano.

and now I'm crazier.
pano ba naman akong hindi mababaliw nyan.
sa loob ng APAT na oras nanood lang ako.

and now I only have an hour to do so.

kaso wala na talaga.

wala na talaga.

*mukyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa*

oo na ito na talaga!!!!





-trailer part 1





-trailer part two..

mukyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!


go bonipasya...

Thursday, April 8, 2010

.Dante's inferno test. hahah. first level lang ako...

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to the First Level of Hell - Limbo!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
LevelScore
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Moderate
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)High
Level 2 (Lustful)Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)Moderate
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

o eto ang psych result ko.

TOTOO NAMAN ITO..


DisorderRating
Paranoid Disorder:Moderate
Schizoid Disorder:Moderate
Schizotypal Disorder:Moderate
Antisocial Disorder:Low
Borderline Disorder:Very High
Histrionic Disorder:Moderate
Narcissistic Disorder:Moderate
Avoidant Disorder:Moderate
Dependent Disorder:Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:High

-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --
-- Personality Disorders --

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

ahahahaha.

sawa na akong gumawa ng sarili kong mundo para sa ibang tao..

ano daw??

wala na naman akong kwenta ngayong araw.

*buntong hininga.*

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

so what's the matter with you?

sing me something true.

*woo ano to bakit ako naiiyak?*

ano ba to.
wala na nga kasing pag-asa pinipilit pa.
ano ba bonipasya nasanay ka ba ng ganyan?
"pwede pa yan. why should I quit? may chances pa"

WHAT THE EP!


asan ang pagkakataon?
para saan ang pagkakataon,
para maulit ang nangyari noon?

FUCK.

I AM REALLY FUCKED UP.


ay naku.

uso talaga ang FALSE HOPE NO?

*we can never take it back.
for all that we're worth now,
not even pleading can save us.
CAN SAVE US NOW.


-np, The Fight is Over, Urbandub.

gusto ko nang umiyak.
umiyak hanggang sa mapagod ako.
hanggang sa sipunin ako.
hanggang sa dumating ang point na hihinga na lang ako ng malalim.
mananahimik.


ayoko na talaga.
the hell with me.

sawang-sawa na ko.

wala nang second chances.
the hell.
second chance?
di na uso yun.
sawa na akong palagi na lang pinagbibigyan ang sarili ko.


sana ngayon.

MATUTO NAMAN AKONG MAHALIN ANG SARILI KO.

Monday, April 5, 2010

fallen.

ako na.

*ask questions to herself*

the only truth I believe in.

IS MYSELF.

*oh yeah.

*ano daw?

walang pumapasok na matino sa utak ko what the heck.

ang nasa utak ko lang ngayon.

ay sya.
oo, sya.

yung taong hanggang ngayon sinasaktan pa rin ako kahit na wala naman syang ginagawa.
we never talked.

or should I say.
we never talked. much as I've been wanting to.


ano daw?

oo na.
wala nang pumapasok sa utak ko.

ano ba.
dapat ba akong magtiwala?
o manahimik na lang?
o kaya.

ako na lang ba lalayo?
o hihintayin ko na lang na sya ang umalis?
ano ba.

as of now, I'm just hurting myself.
oo nga naman bonipasya.
you're just hurting yourself.


ay naku.

browsing death note e-cards.
soon you'll be all mine.

*talk about being SO SELF-CENTERED!



and oh yeah.
ang sakit na ng ulo ko.

sasabog na......

Sunday, April 4, 2010

400th post.

napa-yahoo na lang ako bigla. hahaha.

Friday, April 2, 2010

tragic tale.

oo na bonipasya.

nalaglag ako sa isang bridge sa Picnic Grove.
at sa Tagaytay iyon.

actually na-shoot yung half right leg ko.
hanggang tuhod.

saved item:

Onee-Chan's 6233.


at ngayon.
may pasa na parang lobo sa right leg ko.
sa tabi pa ng tuhod .
ano ba to.


kaya ngayon, sabog akong maglakad.

*pwede bang maglakad ala-L?


ano ba yan pati obsesyon ko dinala ko dito.

by the way.

oo na.

lesson learned:

*wag magdadala ng cam sa tulay.
*wag maadik sa sariling pagmumukha.
*wag ipakita ang trahedya sa nakakatandang kapatid para mabilis makamove-on sa aftershock.




*end of story.
tama na.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

hey soul sister.

malamang sa malamang.
hindi ko mapapakinabangan si w850i.
pano.
parehas na kaming depekto ang utak.
anyways.

andyan naman si onii--chan.
ano daw.
si soul sister.

naku heavy duty si 6233.
problema lang sa kanya. walang plas.*flash*

pero carry naman all the way.

sana overnight kami para ultimate saya.
kasi ako na kasama hindi ko alam kung overnight nga ba.


Popoy at Bash. oo na.

bakit ganito nababaliw na naman ako sa ONE MORE CHANCE?

ano to, MANIA?

ay naku, ha.
grabe na itey.

nababangag na naman ako kay John Lloyd.

grabe kaya to.

sarap ulit-ulitin..
o nga.

ay naku I ♥ you john lloyd - bea.

sana kayo na lang..........

napapa-OO na lang ako.

oo na.
ikaw na.

IKAW NA NGA, EH.!

BAKARONE!!!

*ano daw???

oo na.
I know na kaya ka nagtetext kase unlimited ka!!

oh yeah.
ito ang bunga ng hindi ko pagkapanood ng ONE MORE CHANCE.
oo.
I'm madly addicted dyan sa penikulang yan.

oo na.
ako na.