Thursday, December 31, 2009

lastly..

patikim pa lang to four entries na. haha. .
congratulate me.
palakpakan..


Just when I had you off my head
Your voice comes thrashing wildly through my quiet bed
You say you wanna try again
But I've tried everything but giving in

Why you wanna break my heart again
Why am I gonna let you try

When all we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye

I bought a ticket on a plane
And by the time it landed you had gone again

I love you more than songs can say
But I can't keep running after yesterday

Why you wanna break my heart again
Why am I gonna let you try

When all we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye

We say goodbye
We say goodbye
We say goodbye

All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye

All we ever do is say goodbye
(to fade..)•

-all we ever do is say goodbye.




•Now that we are over
As the loving kind
We'll be dreaming ways
To keep the good alive

Only when we want is not
A compromise
Ill be pouring tears
Into your drying eyes

Friends, lovers, or nothing
There can only be one
Friends, lovers, or nothing
We'll never be the inbetween
So give it up

You whisper "Come on over"
Cause your two drinks in
But in the morning I will say
Good-bye again

Think we'll never fall into
The jealous game
The streets will flood
With blood of those who felt the same

Friends, lovers, or nothing
You see
There can only be one
Friends, lovers, or nothing
We'll never an inbetween
So give it up

Friends, lovers, or nothing
We can really only ever be one
Friends, lovers, or nothing
Don't you know
We'll never be the in between
So give it up

No we'll never the in between
So give it up•



-friends, lovers or nothing..




•Had a little love, but I spread it thin

Falling in her arms and out again
Made a bed made for my game round town
Tore out my heart, and shut it down.

Nothing to do, nowhere to be.
I sip a little kind of free
Nothing to do, no one but me
That's all I need

I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely, yeah
'Cause I don't belong to anyone
nobody belongs to me.

I see my friends around from time to time
When their ladies let them slip away
And when they ask how I'm doing with mine
This is always what I say

Nothing to do, nowhere to be
I sip a little kind of free
Nothing to do, no one to be
Isn't it hard to see

Why I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely, yeah
'Cause I don't belong to anyone, nobody belongs to me

And this is not to say there never comes a day
I'll take my chances and start again
And when I look behind on all my younger times
I'll have to fake her arms that led me to a love so strong

I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely, yeah
'Cause I don't belong to anyone, nobody belongs
(it's the way, that's the way, it's the way that I want it) - (repeat to end)•


-perfectly lonely




•Young and full of running
Tell me where's that taking me?
Just a great figure 8 or a tiny infinity

Love is really nothing
But a dream that keeps waking me
For all of my trying
You still end up dying
How can it be?

Don't say a word, just come over and lie here with me
'Cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see
I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I believe
There I just said it, I'm scared you'll forget about me

So young and full of running, all the way to the edge of desire
Steady my breathing, silently screaming,
"I have to have you now"
Wired and I'm tired
Think I'll sleep in my clothes on the floor
Maybe this mattress will spin on its axis and find me on yours

Don't say a word just come over and lie here with me
'Cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see
I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I believe
There I just said it, I'm scared you'll forget about me

Don't say a word just come over and lie here with me
'Cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see
I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I believe
There I just said it, I'm scared you'll forget about me•


-edge of desire..


all tracks written and sung by my beloved, john c mayer


dedicated to..*drumroll*

secret..


binabasura ba?

naloloka na ako.
gusto ko nang magpa-admit sa mental..

kung anu-anong delusyon ang pumapasok sa utak ko.

ayoko na nga..

matutulog na ako..
baka sakali tulog lang ang kailangan ko.
ayaw nang tumalab ng chocolate bilang anti-depressant, eh.
yung pocky ko hindi ko bubuksan, sa pasukan na lang..kung aabot, sana.


paste ko lang tong lyrics ng mga favorite tracks ko from John Mayer.

wala na rin naman yung hinihintay ko eh.
nagsasayang lang naman ako ng oras.

wala na yun.
basag na..
sabog pa.
tomador kasi.
ano ba to.masyado akong apektado.



salamat nga pala kay Ryan.
binati nya ako kanina..
haha..
wala lang.
unexpected kasi.


at kay..
sige pakasaya ka lang...
andito lang ako..
wag ka lang magkakamali..
mapapatay talaga kita.








linsiyak na fb yan..

makasalanan!

"naghihintay..
kahit parang wala na."

wala na nga.
walangya.
walangya talaga.

salamat kay Leah Arguilles, may nakakausap ako ngayon..

may napaglalabasan ako ng pagka-emo...



*binabasura ng iba ang siyang pinapangarap ko*

oo nga pala.

nakalimutan kong lumagay sa lugar.
ni involvement nga wala kami.
friends? nah either.

ako kasi itong si tanga ang bilis..
ang bilis bilis.

kung bakit kasi ang bilis-bilis kong nadadala sa mga taong sobra kung maglambing..


bakit..

tigilan ko na nga.

another unfinished romance ended.

tama ba grammar ko?


yung love story, effective lang pag graveyard shift.

twing gabi, gabing-gabi at madaling araw.
bibihira sa hapon.
mga nocturnals, baga.

pag hindi oras, wala.
walang pansinan..
as in, wala.


*disclaimers: hindi ko naman to sinusulat para mabasa nya, eh. sinulat ko to kasi masama lang ang loob ko. yun lang. tsaka. wt, may mag-iinteres bang magbasa sa self-centered blog ko?*


basta.
isang linggong pag-ibig talaga.

malanding bagong taon--RELOADED.

I always start my year, with a resolution.
wala lang. echos lang na resolusyon..
pag natupad, good. pag hindi, ok lang.

ano ba..
siguro mas maging disiplinado sa pagkain.
bawasan ang pagiging palamura.
at lastly, ang highlight..

pag ako nain-love ulit, kung mauulit man..
mas mabuting wag na lang nya malalaman.
para pag nasaktan o bastedin man nya ako.

at least..
walang hard feelings.
walang konsensyang involved.

kasi naman ang hirap para sa akin ang magtago ng paghanga.
pramis..
kaya sa bawat taong nagugustuhan ko.
they all ended up in nothing.
ni minsan hindi ko naging close.
kasi alam na agad nila na may pagtingin ako sa kanila.
syempre, di ba may ilang factor na.

aist..
naiiyak talaga ako.
ngayon lang ulit nangyari to.


ciao.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

look what you've done..

december 31 na pala.
ang bilis ng panahon.
parang dumaan ang napakaraming pagkakataon.
para mapadali ang paghilom.

bilis na bilis talaga ako.

as of now, ang daming improvements..

-more faithful kay God
-natuto akong maging independent
-hindi na ako masyadong palamura..
(may nagbawal kasi sa akin, two years back. ano ba yan naaalala ko pa rin ang taong bumago sa pananaw ko)
-maraming na-discover sa sarili ko.
-marunong pala akong makipag-away.
-marunong pala akong lumangoy.
-kaya ko palang tumayo kahit wala na sya sa tabi ko.
-smarter than last year??
(siguro. kasi mas marami akong natutunan. I believe na sa bawat pagdaan ng taon, mas marami tayong nalalaman)
-mas naloka ako.
(kaya kong kausapin ang sarili ko.. parang bago na sa akin eh no.)


mas marami ang changes.

-mas mabait na talaga ako. hindi na ako nambu-bully. ako na ang binu-bully.
-natuto akong gumawa ng bagay without knowing kung ano ang magiging resulta. in short 'sapalaran'. ika nga ni ina.
-at mas marami akong minahal.
didn't mean offense, mas na-appreciate ko ang bagay na hindi ko naman napapansin dati.



so there.

I hope this lucky year would be the same in 2010.


ciao..
happy new year..

this vintage diary.

asar.
wala pa talaga akong nabibili..

naiiyak na ako..

*hikbi*

ang OA eh no.
kasi naman ngayon lang ako maglalaktaw..

ngayon lang talaga.
please if anyone could buy me talaga.

utang na loob ko sa yo ang lahat.

whooo..........!!!!

idol Gabby Alipe...

super Ido-wl...

saludo....................................

grabe.
watching 'evidence' over and over again.
over and over.
kahit ulit-ulitin.


kung kasing-brutal lang talaga ako.. nakow.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

tracks for this year..*proudly compiled by ME*

*uncut..full length last song syndromes...*

*randomly selected. isn't it obvious na vanilla twilight ang nagwagi??*


•GRANDSLAM WINNER : VANILLA TWILIGHT - OWL CITY
"Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly, but I'll miss your arms around me, I tend to postcard to you dear, 'cause I wish you were here."
*ulit??*

•The Wind Blows - The All-American Rejects
"you wanna stay, but since you wanna play, I can finally say we're through"
•The Saddest Song - Until June
"you fell in love with foolish things, you fell away from me, but now you're gone"
•Never Say Never - The Fray-->1st Runner Up.
"walang kamatayang 'don't let me go' "
•Automatic - Tokio Hotel-->2nd Runner-Up
(dito nagsimula ang lahat)
"it's automatic when you say things get better, but they never, there's no real love in you, why do I keep loving you..automatic"
•Back To Me - The All - American Rejects-->3rd Runner-Up
(for months na walang kamatayan, men. ask sheel a mae socito, she even knew it.)
"I swear that you just want someone, but I'm the only one you need"
•What Hurts The Most - Boyce Avenue
(lyrics pa lang pamatay na..for me, a perfect..BREAK UP SONG)
•Heartless - The Fray
(better than the original)

•John Mayer-->Addictive, my best brand of heroin..(ahaha..twilight?)
-Half Of My Heart (ft. Taylor Swift)
-Heartbreak Warfare
-Friends, Lovers or Nothing
-PERFECTLY LONELY
-Who Says
-I'M GONNA FIND ANOTHER YOU
(relate, relate)

•Wrapped in Your Arms - Fireflight.
(ZeKi theme song. still vk obsessed. hindi makamove-on)
•Good Enough - Lifehouse
•Say When - The Fray
•Not A Second To Waste - A Rocket to the Moon
•Three Cheers For Five Years - Mayday Parade
(at marami pang kanta nila, hard for me to specify sa sobrang dami)
•21 Guns - Greenday
•Two is Better Than One, Love Drunk - Boys Like Girls
•Ignorance, Brick By Boring Brick - Paramore



RnB, pa-gangstah, ballad, mellow..

(wala.. pag naririnig ko sinasabayan ko na lang.)

•Cry - Kelly Clarkson
(iyakan na to..pramis she's very powerful in here)
•Touch My Hand - DA
(due to my dial syndrome nung kasagsagan ng pamumudmod ng libreng tickets para sa concert nila ni DC. kaso hindi naman ako nanalo)
•EMPIRE STATE OF MIND - JayZ ft. Alicia Keys
(p1 or p2 pa yan..adik talaga.)
•Run This Town, Russian Roulette - Rihanna
•Thinking of You - Katy Perry
(hardcore, pre)
•Sleeping With A Broken Heart - Alicia Keys
•Lost Then Found - Leona Lewis ft. One Republic
•Seven Days Without You - Teddy Geiger
•Love Game, Paparazzi, Bad Romance, Eh-Eh - Lady GaGa
(saksi ang langit sa lahat ng pagkanta ko sa tatlong yan. pati ang kubeta naming sawang-sawa na sa "I want your love and I want your revenge, you and me could write a bad romance"..going gaga over her)
•Viva La GaGa - Lady GaGa (heard it right, astig kaya.)
•Broken Hearted Girl, Videophone - Beyonce
•Whatcha Say - Jason Derulo
•Unstoppable - Kat de Luna ft. Lil Wayne
•Photo, On the way Down - Ryan Cabrera (RC daw, oh)
•Never Knew I Needed, Part of the list - Ne-Yo


at lastly..
•Can't Fight This Feeling Anymore - Glee Cast
(kung sino man sa Glee ang kumanta nito, pinupuri kita..salute....astig..f na f)

jUSTIN BEIBER, ily PUBERTY BOY.


*un lang..baka may kulang pa rewrite ko na lang ulit*

bahagi ka ba?

life's stupidities this 2009



(achievements, unforgettable moments, confrontations, shared friendships, heartbreaking stories, etseterah....)

-(compiled from my 2009 papemelroti vintage diary and my "immortal" blog, http://janinasuncion.blogspot.com (plug lang ng konti)



1st Quarter of 2009 (January to March)



-another New Year came. same old story.

-fell in love with my bestfriend. (sya lang naman ang naging bestfriend ko na guy).

-on the way to ROAD OF ACCEPTANCE. mas bagay sila. at ayoko sa lahat yung "talu-talo".

-VALENTINE'S DAY TRAGEDY..asa bahay lang ako nun.. pero lahat ng tugtog sa radyo, sinisira ang pagkatao ko..walang kamatayang 'single ladies'.

-JS Promenade..-->ang Huling Paggalaw-->the girl who wore green chucks. (wala po akong kasalanan. trip ko lang po talaga yun nung araw na yun)

-Sinulog Champion lang NAMAN.

-Submitting those burdening school paperworks, requirements, projects, taking up final tests, etc..(aminin ko dito bastusan na lang. hindi na talaga ako nagre-review..tipong "go bon, maniwala ka sa tawag ng iyong damdamin")

-March 28---the 'hearing'
PUPCET na. dyan nakasalalay kung matutupad ang mga pangarap ko or kung hindi na ba ako makakarating ng japan.


2nd Quarter (April-June, 2009)

-High School Graduation..
par-tay at the valedictorian's house, Remson Macawile.
"hay buhay akalain mo ba naman tatanda pala tayo."-->those were the times..

-moved on (really) with the guy I've loved for four years. (Ewan ko lang kung tumalab, kasi hanggang ngayon, parang.. aist.. wala na yun bonbon, ok???? wala na yun..)

-Passed PUPCET.
(sayang hindi psycho, eh..at least pinalad ako may education pala dun..ekk.. janina ana asuncion, Ed.D. -->panget.

-have read Dan Brown's novels. that made my brain BLOOD DRAINED.

-FIRST WEEK IN PUP.
adjusting college life.


inferiority-never felt.
friends-earned.
attitude problem-decreased.
independence-FINALLY GRANTED.
feeling of attraction to ________, revealed.

3rd Quarter, 2009 (July to September)

"and if you're so strong, you might as well just do it alone, and I'll watch you go"
-Can't Take It, The All-American Rejects

"This guy's in love with her, badtrip"
-My own rendition to parokya ni edgar's 'this guy's in love with you, pare')

"kung hindi pa naramdamang napipilitan ka lang, hindi ka lalayuan"
-jasuncion.

-another attraction felt to mr. sungit.
(infatuated? compatibilities siguro..birthdate, for example.)

-won 1st place in intra-campus debate.
singkwenta din yun

-The FIVE DAY SPANNED CONTRACT. bow.

-CHEERDANCE COMPETITION 2009 CHAMPION.

-VK COMPLETE--NOW MINE.
(thanks for unii-chan for the birthday gift)

-ONDOY TRAGEDY.
(featuring maricris, taipen, and shirley)

-TOKIO HOTEL MANIAC.


4th Quarter, 2009 (October-December)

-Identity Crisis

-did a LOT of MISTAKES. MISINTERPRETATIONS. TYPOGRAPHICAL ERRORS.

-Numerophobic. hindi talaga nakatadhana sa akin na maging forte ang math at alam ko yun.

-"Unti-unti masasanay din akong wala ka. teka, sino ka nga pala?"
-janinasuncion

-stressed. yet enjoyed.

lastly..

ANG ISANG LINGGONG PAG-IBIG WITH VANILLA TWILIGHT--->ANG AKING KALULUWA.

-konti na lang..sayang talaga.



-END.

*in case I forgot something that is worth to be written here, please, PM me. wag mahiya. mabuti akong tao. hindi lang halata.*

~`ciao.



Monday, December 28, 2009

ek..hahaha.

a simple attraction to his so-called assets.

oo nga..
when I viewed his profile, wala na akong naramdaman.
(may facebook pala sya, huwatttt? akala ko taga-bundok yun..)

nge.
dun pa sa fb ng ex nya ko nakita.

hey, I love guys with glasses, bet you didn't know.

I'm planning to have one, too. due to my nearsightedness and seeing blurred images afar.

haha.
maski ako nagulat talaga..
syempre at first.."wahaha, akalain mo yun nagustuhan ko ang isang katulad mo..ngayon humanap ka ng iba, andito naman ako. hindi ka lang marunong tumingin sa likod.."

nasa acceptance stage na ako, deary.
you have nothing to worry about.
hindi naman ako pinanganak para maging sulutera..


well.
listen to my shallow explanation first.
I'm not wishing you to believe.

basta. bigla ko na lang na-realize.
na gusto lang pala talaga kita.

salamat.
ikaw mismo ang nagpaunawa nun sa kin.

kahit hindi man dumating ang point na yun.
na halos isuka mo ako.

at least, mas nakilala ko ang sarili ko, nang dahil sa yo..

add na lang kita..
sayang naman ang unwanted friendship..


ekk.
hahaha.

Sunday, December 27, 2009

the color of love..

is TUMBLR.
very much addicted to it..

haha.

umaga.
tumblr.
tanghali.
tumblr.
gabi.
tumblr.
graveyard.
tumblr.


ulit..

graveyard.
tumblr.
gabi.
tumblr.
tanghali.
tumblr.
umaga.
tumblr.


and oh.

I'm stoned.

http://www.mangafox.com/manga/vampire_knight/

http://www.mangafox.com/manga/vampire_knight/

Saturday, December 26, 2009

hell ya!

A SELF CONFESSED TUMBLR ADDICT.
nakakatakot.
lagot.
patay ako sa parents ko..

may iba na namang dahilan para magala-call center agent ako tuwing gabi at inaabot pa ako madalas ng madaling araw.

lagot na talaga..
gagawa na naman ako ng masama.

never knew I needed.

ooh) for the way you changed my plans
for being the perfect distraction
for the way you took the idea that i have
of everything that i wanted to have
and made me see there was something missing (oh yeah)
for the ending of my first begin
(ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
and for the rare and unexpected friend
(ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
for the way you’re something that i never choose
but at the same time something i don’t wanna lose
and never wanna be without ever again (oh oh)

you’re the best thing i never knew i needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it’s so clear i need you here always

my accidental happily (ever after) (oh oh oh)
the way you slime and how you comfort me (with your laughter)
i must admit you were not a part of my book
but now if you open it up and take a look
you’re the beginning and the end of every chapter (oh oh)

you’re the best thing i never knew i needed (oh)
so when you were here i had no idea
http://www.elyricsworld.com/never_knew_i_needed_lyrics_ne-yo.html
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed (that i needed)
so now it’s so clear i need you here always

who’d knew that i’d be here (who’d knew that i’d be here oh oh)
so unexpectedly (so unexpectedly oh oh)
undeniablely happy (hey)
said with you right here, right here next to me (oh)

girl you’re the..
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed (said i needed oh oh)
so when you were here i had no idea
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed (needed oh)
so now it’s so clear i need you here always
baby baby
now it’s so clear i need you here always





-whoa.

hell ya..

astig.

standing ovation ako dito mag-isa.

aba, hindi ata pangkaraniwan to.

di kaya nababaliw na ako?

minsan may mga pagkakataong.

-sa sobrang pag-iisip nakakalimutan kong mas may importante pa pala sa mga pinagpaplanuhan ko para sa hinaharap.


-pilit kong tinatakasan ang alaala ng nakaraan, pero kusa itong bumabalik.

-gusto kong tapusin ang isang bagay, na napakadali, pero sa huli ang hirap palang tapusin.

-akala ko pag sinabi kong tapos na, hindi na ako mumultuhin ng pangyayaring iyon.

-kung pumasok man syang muli sa isipan ko, wala na akong maramdaman dahil naging bahagi na sya ng kwento ng buhay ko.

-kahit na napakasaya ng lahat, hindi ko pa rin mapigilang malungkot.


-kinakanta ko ang hello, hello ng radioactive sago project...
"ang sarap maligaw sa mundong tulala"
"sino ba ito, sino ba ito sino ba ako?"


-sinasabi ko sa sarili ko na hindi talaga pwede, pero, pag ginagawa ko yun, dun lang ako nasisiyahan.





*woohoo. matatapos na ang kaligayahan ko.
malapit nang magpasukan.
surely, wala na lang ang lahat sa kanya*

*at least naging bahagi naman sya ng buhay ko.
tingin ko sapat na yon.
wala naman akong ibang hinangad kundi makilala pa sya.
na nangyari naman.*

*pero syempre, I should always keep this in mind.
lahat ng bagay ay panandalian lang.
kung magkataon man na naging magkaibigan kayo kahit sandali lang.
at least, kahit sandali may pinagsamahan na*

*kahit hindi nya alam na nagkaroon sya ng puwang sa yo.
mas mabuti na lang na hindi nya malaman.
dahil dun sa sandaling nagkaroon kayo ng pansamantalang pagkakaibigan.
siguro naman, alam mo na una pa lang.
hindi tinadhana na ang naging ugnayan nyo ay mahihigitan pa nung una.*



--ekk.
pano ba yan.........
writer chorva na naman ako..
bukas wala na yan.
sinasamantala ko lang ang pagkakataong naitakas ko ang kamalayan ko.
mamaya mawala na ang konsentrasyon ko.

*ganito pala ang pakiramdam ng taong inindyan (nga ba?), ngayon alam ko na*



-ciao.







you're pretending you're not.

screaming infidelities by dashboard confessional lyrics.

*
I'm missing your bed
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak,
And this bottle of beast
Is taking me home

[1.]
I'm cuddling close
To blankets and sheets
But you're not alone, and you're not discreet
Make sure I know who's taking you home.

I'm reading your note over again
There's not a word that I comprehend,
Except when you signed it
"I will love you always and forever."

[2.]
Well As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs
And sit alone and wonder
How you're making out
But as for me, I wish that I was anywhere with anyone
Making out.

I'm missing your laugh
How did it break?
And when did your eyes begin to look fake?
I hope you're as happy as you 're pretending.

[1.]
I am alone
In my defeat I wish I knew you were safely at home

I'm missing your bed
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have speak, and
This bottle of beast is taking me home.

[2.]

Your hair, it's everywhere.
Screaming infidelities
And taking its wear.
[Repeat Four times]


love it.

Friday, December 25, 2009

been busy.

tipid ko nang magsulat.
ekk.
walang maisulat talaga.

will be on hiatus this week, or coming week.
meditating thyself on going.

magpapakatahimik muna ako sa bahay.

hindi na muna ako magko-call center.
baka yumaman na ako sa ginagawa ko.

ang dami ko nang deformities.
wag nang maghangad tignan, baka makasapak lang ako.


I wanted to see something different.
something you said a word changed in me.
wanted to be anything different.
everything you would changed in me.


this could be could be different. this could be all that I'm waiting for.



ekk.
off to go na.
serious.

your memory is breaking my heart.

watched 'the vampire diaries'
I love it.
wala. package na sya for me.
story flow - mas maganda kesa sa twilight. may literal na tinatawag na "FLOW".



"I will watch these feelings to be gone"

pag nasanay na akong palagi kang andyan. sorry ka na lang.
I feel sorry for you, deary.
matakot ka na.

ekk.

stoned ako ngayon.
ano bang meron?
wala ako sa mood magsulat.
wala kasing nagmo-motivate sa aking magsulat.

parang sabog lang.

songs that just recently heard.

Automatic - tokio hotel
LSS - stonefree
just say yes - snow patrol
hardest part - coldplay
half of my heart - john mayer ft taylor swift
gravity - john mayer

syempre, pa-gangsta ng konti.
according to you - orianthi
empire state of mind - jayz ft alicia keys
tick-tock - kesha





oops.
off to go na ako.
mamamasko pa ako sa mga ninong ko sa cubao.
parang ang dami naman nila.

christmas wish number 1:
bumalik ang dati kong timbang....





!!dito ko na lang ilagay yung record breaking talks
longest chat time: 1.41AM!!!!!!!(forgot the date, darn)
longest talk time via phone: 3.26 AM.(christmas day, 2009)
bet you, kung hindi pa ako tinawag ni ina, wala.
walang awat..

san ka..

ops. 4.44 am na.
sya lang naman naaalala ko,eh.
sleepless nights..
ekk.
ngayon lang ulit nangyari to.



ciao na nga.



Wednesday, December 23, 2009

come and rescue me..

rescue me..

"come and rescue me
I'm burning can't you see..
come and rescue me..
only you can set me free..."

-rescue me, tokio hotel..

*ang tagal naman*

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

wala sa katinuan..

tinatamad na ko.
sige na..
sleep na ako..

yung utak ko nasa kabilang direksyon na.

Monday, December 21, 2009

copy paste

ang walong sintomas ng taong nagsisinungaling:

-hindi ka matitigan ng eye-to-eye.

-nahihirapang gumawa ng alibi.

-dina-divert ang issue.

-umiiwas sa bawat tanong.

-pag matutumbok mo na yung ginawa, deny pa ng deny. magsisinungaling pa ulit.

-pag pinilit mo syang magsabi, reply nya: "tumigil ka nga bakit ba ganun ang iniisip mo? wala ka bang tiwala sa akin? nang dahil ba sa isyung ito masisira ang pinagsamahan natin?" (at kung anu-ano pang paawa-effect.)

-pag na-feel mo na nagsisinungaling sya, sasabihin nya: " bakit mukha ba akong hindi nagsasabi ng totoo?"

-pag confirmed na nagsisinungaling sya, sasabihin nya..
"I don't mean it. ginawa ko lang kasi yun para........."


-at kasunod nyan, ang napakaraming palusot.





-sana nga mapunta na sa impyerno ang mga sinungaling.




*based on personal experience*

may you find.

they may be empty.
or weightless and maybe.
I'll find some peace tonight.

in the arms of an angel.
fly away from here.
in this dark cold hotel room.
and the endlessness that you feel.
you are pulled from the wreckage.
of your silent reverie.
in the arms of an angel.
may you find some comfort here.

remembering.
one of my most all-time favorite film, city of angels.
wala lang.

tearjearking love story.
timeless, really.
bongga, kumbaga.


oo nga pano nga ba nasama to sa pag-eemote ko?

kasi.
kasi.

my LOST ANGEL HAS BEEN FOUND.


wala pa ngang assurance kung sya nga, eh

si janina asuncion ay pinanganak na tagasalo.
beat that, record holder na ako sa ganyan.
nasobrahan kasi sa bait.

pero there's nothing to catch up for naman, eh.
kung magkagayon man.
andito lang ako.

tsaka meron ba akong dapat saluhin sa kanya?

*this topic—pointless*


-xao-
_end_

anong meron?

killing the hurt.

bulakbol *growling*

minsan lang naman ako mag-growl sa buhay ko no.
wahaha.
pag naririnig ko talaga yun sa NU rock, wala na.
buo na talaga.

twice pa lang yun, ha.
pero yung impact, grabe.
ganun daw ata talaga kapag based on experience.

e adik pa naman ako.
adik akong gumala.
gusto ko palagi akong wala sa bahay.
feeling ko nasa kabilang mundo ako pag umaalis ako.
lalo na pag ako lang mag-isa.
ang saya.
ang sarap sa pakiramdam.
nararanasan ko ang kawalan kahit sandali lang.

nakakalimutan ko ang problema.
panandalian kong winawaksi ang paghihirap.
ang nararanasang pagkabigo.


oh well..
ganyan talaga ang aftermath ng paggala sa akin.



*
I
Walang hinihintay
Kundi ang pagsakay
Isang saglit na lang
Di na magbibilang

Ii
Kapag lumilingon
Biglang mawawala
Ako'y tumatalon
(ako'y sinasabon)
At siya'y tumutula/bumubula

Chorus:
Lumilindol
Naghahabol
Hanggang kailan ka
Bang bulakbol?

Adlib:
Iii
Saan dinadala
Tinik sa yong paa
Subalit datapwat
Biglang magkakalat
(repeat ii except last word)
-bumubula

Iv
Walang hinihintay
Di na makasabay
Isang saglit na lang
Di na magbibilang
(repeat ii)*


lyrics pa lang pamatay na.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

parang, "hey, are we?"

It's really over, you made your stand
You got me crying, as was your plan
But when my loneliness is through, I'm gonna find another you

You take your sweaters
You take your time
You might have your reasons but you will never have my rhymes
I'm gonna sing my way away from blue
I'm gonna find another you

When I was your lover
No one else would do
If I'm forced to find another, I hope she looks like you
Yeah and she's nicer too

So go on baby
Make your little get away
My pride will keep me company
And you just gave yours all away
Now I'm gonna dress myself for two
Once for me and once for someone new
I'm gonna do somethings you wouldn't let me do
Oh I'm gonna find another you



am I?
dang.
tagal na nyan ah.
wala lang.
feeling..
are we mode.
hindi naman.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

the damnest thing I've done.

dakilang tanga powtek.
I'm in love with him<-------oo na nga eh hindi na po ako magde-deny.

Friday, December 18, 2009

I miss tagging myself out.

now playing..
I'm gonna find another you by John Mayer.
(in the midst of moving on stage.)


halfway gone by lifehouse..
and dreaming with a broken heart by John Mayer.


and no way,
cause you're gone.
when you're dreaming with a broken heart.
waking up is the hardest part.





might as well I'm looking for theory of a dead man's not meant to be.

It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you wanted from me
And knowing that if I give that to you
I might just disappear

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
Oh, it's like trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe
That there's no way out for you and me
And it seems to be the story of our life

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
Oh, it's like trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

There's still time to turn this around
You could building this up instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
Oh, it's like trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I finally see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, baby I'm sorry to see
Maybe we're not meant to be


I just simply love the lyrics.

maybe we're not meant to be, freak.

*pabilisan na lang o*





pasimpleng tanga.

really, I am.
grabe tambak ako ngayon, ah.
luging-lugi.

kakagaling ko lang dun.
tapos binigyan ko ng pagkakataon ang sarili kong umulit.
tapos ngayon.
umulit nga.
bumalik ulit sa dati.
another heartache na naman.

wohoo.
ilang araw na tong sleepless nights ko ah.
ilang araw na mula nung huli kaming nag-usap.
inaway ko pa nga di ba.

tapos.
ayun.
the stalker in me is arising.
grabe.
ang layo nya.
super.
ang layo layo.

ayoko na.
mabuti yung maaga pa lang umayaw na ako.
baka pag lumalim pa to.
mahihirapan na akong umatras sa laban na hindi k0 alam kung paano tapusin..
sa laban na.
alam ko namang sa umpisa pa lang imposible akong manalo.
sa laban na.
kinakatakutan kong maranasan ulit dahil sa masasakit nitong ginawa sa akin..

sa tinatawag na laban ng pag-ibig.
ako'y pilit ginugupo ng sakit.


ganito pala talaga pag sobra ka nang nasaktan..
pipilitin mong hanap-hanapin ang sakit.


kahit hindi mo pa ganap na kilala ang taong gusto mong mahalin,
alam mo na agad, na..
sasaktan ka rin nya..
hindi pa kayo nagsisimula,
tinatapos na nya.




ops 1.11 na.
remembering..
hmmm.
I miss you badly, freak.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

laging bigo. laging sawi.

may balat nga ba ako sa pwet?

the fear of hating.you.

kapag natuto ka nang pagkatiwalaan ang bagay na yun, kahit ano pa man ang gawin o sabihin nya, maniniwala ka pa rin..

may mga pagkakataong kahit alam mong mali ang proseso ng lahat, para sa yo, tama pa rin.

pero minsan yung pagtitiwalang binibigay mo, sobra na.
dumadating na ang pangyayaring naaabuso ka na.
sa sobrang tiwala talaga maraming nasasaktan.

-•-•-•-•-•-

*quote unquote*

•kung walang kwenta ang tao, dapat pinapatay na lang•

•kung sa una pa lang mali na, dapat iwasan na yun•

-•-•-•-•-•-


nakakatamad gumawa ng entry ano.
kasi naman.
pre-occupied.


it's been.
almost one day since we've talked.
take note : ONE DAY.
wala lang.
(ganyan magsalita ang taong 'denial'---SAPOL)
denial bang matatawag yun?
o 'realization point?'

8 out of 10.?
(rating I gave when sheela texted me bout the the topic we've talked yesterday)
wt.
ftw.
dunno.
baka mali ang rating ko ah.
baka naman pag panghuhusga na,
maaaring maging.
underrated, o overrated.

darating na ba ang pagkakataong yun?
e parang kinausap lang ata ako para mapakinabangan.
pag wala nang silbi itatapon na lang.

anone?
for the record lang ha.
lahat sila ganyan.
tapos.
hey are you an idiot?
gagaya ka pa sa kanila.
bakarone.


parang.
sinusubukan ko pa lang umaayaw na.
parang.
nilalapitan ko pa lang lumalayo na.
parang.
hahabulin ko pa lang, tumatakbo na.
parang.
kikidnapin ko pa lang, nakatakas na.
parang.
kung kailan ko na-realize, tsaka pa sya tumigil.
parang.........


"Why do we say things we can’t take back
Why do we miss what we never had
Both of us fell to the ground
The love was so lost, it couldn’t be found
Why do you tend to forget whose vain
I’m tired of crying out at the sound of your name
Why don’t we turn this around, love ain't the enemy
Don’t you want to be lost then found"
-Lost then Found, Leona Lewis ft. One Republic

"We lost a dream
We never had
The world in silence
Should forever feel alone
'Cause we are gone
And we will never overcome
It's over now now now"
-Love is Dead, Tokio Hotel


"I'm haunted by your shadow
I reach to feel your face
You're not here
Are you here?"
-Rescue Me, Tokio Hotel

xao.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

sabi ko na nga ba eh.

vindicated, I am.
stupid, I am.

wala lang.

caught up.

para namang hindi na bago sa akin ang matulog ng napakatagal.

mas gusto ko pa ngang matulog kesa isipin ang mga problema ko, eh.
at least sa ganong paraan kahit papano makalimutan ko naman yung mga problema ko.

never you mind.

influence.

kung hindi dahil sa kuryosidad, hindi ko sana mapapabayaan ang aking vintage diary.
dang.
miss ko nang magsulat.
kaso wala naman akong maisulat.

(ano ba one hour pa lang hindi nagtetext miss ko na agad sya)

eekk.
ilusyon.

you came around to show me love and yet you're about to leave.

dapat naman talaga ganyan ang thinking, eh, di ba?
kasi all things come the unexpected way.

e wtf.

di ko naman akalain na aabot sa ganito,eh.
akala ko wala lang.

sana wala nga lang to.
natatakot akong aminin sa sarili ko kung mangyari man.

quote unquote:
"hindi naman kita minahal para kalimutan sya, eh.kundi minahal kita dahil mas mahal kita kesa sa kanya, at kinalimutan ko na sya para mahalin ka"

oh well.

kaya ayoko sa taong sweet, eh.
ako mismo ang nahuhulog sa sarili kong patibong.
madali talaga akong ma-fall sa taong weirdo.
likewise, I'm weird.

*please, let me be free.


muli at muli..

bakit kailangan mo pang ipangalandakan sa akin?
para ka namang tanga, o.
kaso mas tanga ako.
kasi ni isa sa mga sinabi mo, wala akong narinig, o naintindihan man lang.
huli na nung nalaman ko.
salamat sa pagtatanong ng sarili ko sa aking konsensya.
mabuti marunong akong magtanong.
mabuti na lang talaga.

kasi yung katangahan ko may kahalagahan pala.
at least.

kasi naman no.
ano bang gusto nyang palabasin?
gusto nya lang bang sabihin sa kin na "hey bon, tama na pwede ba?"

e bakit hindi na lang nya sabihin sa akin nga harapan.
nagpaparinig ka pa.
pasalamat ka hindi ko narinig.
kundi baka nasampal talaga kita.

what's next?
ano tanga pa rin ba ako mamaya?



Tuesday, December 15, 2009

of course I want to pero hindi pa ngayon.

pagkatapos ko namang mabasted ng karumal-dumal.

tapos ngayon ibang tao na naman.

please naman..
wag muna ngayon.

masyado nang madaming nangyayari tapos..

susunod ka pa?


Monday, December 14, 2009

I know I'm gonna be OK>

and inside I'm not.


kaloka.
ayoko na.
sawa na ako.

nakakasawa.


*wish fulfilled.*

oo nakapaglakwatsa ako ng bongga.
nakabili na ako ng damit ko.
saya bongga.

kanya-kanyang trip yan..


back to the ballgame.

oo.I hate him now.
tama ang girl's intuition.

*pasensya na madaliang entry to.*


ayoko ng taong sya na mismo ang gumagawa ng paraan para iwasan ko sya.

yun na.

ginagawa na nya/..

wag ka mag-alala.

dahil lahat naman ng ginagawa mo apektado ako.





Sunday, December 13, 2009

if it's alright for you then it's alright for me.

pocky is my so-called heaven..
*hugs it tightly*












hard for me to let it go.
holy s***,pootek.
4.46 na pala.
napaka-blessed ko talaga..
and I'm thankful.


papasok pa ako..

been busy doing research paper lately.
and a topic proposal for thesis.
hindi pa kami nagpupuntang UP.



*ngayon lang ako gumastos ng sobrang laki para sa pagkain.

SPENDTHRIFT-I AM.!

ay naku.



Friday, December 11, 2009

the girl in black boots

gonna do it..
sa year-end partay....

everyone knows I'm in over my head..

over my head

basta yun..
pakituloy na lamang hindi ko kasi kabisado..


ayun..

looking to be a one-man wrecking machine.

*a track that I listened..forgot the title either*




browsing jrock statements.
wala lang..
para naman may patunguhan ang pre-christmas shopping ko bukas..
goodluck..

sa...
saan nga ba?

basta always preferred ko..-—QUIAPO, Manila..

(--haven for OOkay-OOkay lovers xD)

with or without otou-san..dun ako mamimili..

wahaha..
may asaynment pa pala sa steno..
o di ba wala pa akong gawa..

bobo na nga ako dun eh..





this week's prayer..
sana payagan na ako ni ama na hanggang 12 sa year-end partay..!

maenjoy ko naman ang pagkadalaga ko..

ngek..
I mean, masiyahan lang ako..
kasi makita ko lang sya okey na..



yun lang..

I have to live it..

hello daydreaming..
nakatingin na naman ako sa malayo..


nakakaawa naman.

natatakot siyang malaman ng lahat ang nararamdaman nya..
nasasaktan sya dahil ayaw nyang malaman ang katotohanan..


napipilitan syang ipakita na masaya sya, kahit hindi naman talaga..
gustuhin man niyang magbago napakaraming tumututol..


tinatakasan ang reyalidad kahit ito ang gumugulo sa kanya..
pinapanood ang langit na gusto na nyang puntahan..






nakakaawa, dahil ang kaya nya lang kilalanin ay ang sarili nya..



























emoting...
wahaha..

out of the blue lang yan..
I miss creative writing..

















*doing thy cristmas list..*


too late I'm sure..

It's killing me..


phew..
no love is dead lyrics..
kabadtrip naman..

another topic has been opened..




gotten over with him..
wag na gawan ng isyu..


oo hinahanap-hanap ko sya.(*say what?*)

e ano naman..

bakit dahil ba dun iisipin na nilang gusto ko pa rin ang tao?wtf.

ang ganda ko naman para isipin pa sya..

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

got to do it later...

uploading thy pics..

kakatamad..


tinatamad na naman ako..


shit..

5 o' clock na pala..

gtg na nga......


sana andun na sila pagdating ko..
kasi ang ginaw kaya sa paaralan..
tapos nakikita ko pa sya..


at least pag andun na sila hindi ako magmukhang tanga..........






tanga na eh pagduduldulan pa..






you already know..

when I'm signing in here, parang palagi na lang akong may problema.

parang..

*this life is hell.I wanna die.*


lol..


well..it's 4.44 AM..

yan ang gusto ko sa oras, eh..galing makisama..


*trivia lang:kasi pag triple time, ibig sabihin nun may naaalala ako o may nakakaalala sa akin..*
(eg. 1.11, 2.22,3.33,4.44, etc)



basta yun...

I want to go level 1.

level 0 pa rin ako hanggang ngayon..

aist.

another dumbest day..

re-watching vampire knight guilty..

things are getting boring, so that's why I keep on repeating things I unusually do..

*apologies for my idiotic grammar*

-crunchy-rolling.
-face-booking.
-checking my freak FS account..
(I hate new friendster, they have FV)

-sleeping.
-daydreaming..


and thinking of him..

































*sometimes I got tired when I'm running for nothing*


Tuesday, December 8, 2009

this is my december..

and the best time of the year..

oo na..
masyado naman o..hindi maka-move on..
ang slow ng growth..


oo na ulit..
december 9 2005 yun when I first met him..

oo na naman..
sya ang FIRST LOVE ko..

oo na ulit..
ginawa ko lahat para magwork-out pero wala talaga eh..though maraming bagay na umaayon..


oo na nga...pootek..
hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin sya mawala sa isip ko..


teka, wait..!

wala na yun,..

oo..
nakalimutan ko na sya..

tama nga yung sinabi nya..
masyado pa akong bata..
marami pang darating..

*granted.*..



e lahat naman kasi ng dumaan pagkatapos nya katulad nya rin..



as in..


lahat sila, DUMAAN lang..
laging..*as if, what if, what now*

wtf...

Sunday, December 6, 2009

vanilla twilight..

by owl city..


love it..
6 stars..
standing ovation...

wahaha..


The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you,
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'll send a postcard to you dear,
Cause I wish you were here.

I'll watch the night turn light blue,
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find repose in new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.





astig di ba..
cheesy, really he is..


sana may mag-dedicate sa akin nyan..
*make-believing*


lamig ng christmas ko..




*shivering*

I'm gonna find a way to make it without you..

-sleeping with a broken heart..
(Alicia Keys)..


love it..


5 stars..

wasted 101

help..
wala ako sa hulog ngayon..
badtrip ako..

Friday, December 4, 2009

he isn't a GIRL..



brotherly love*
what a mysteriously bad grammar..


who is much better..?


they are twin brothers..
.

September 1, 1989 is the birth date..
toldya, I'm not lying..






*para silang magsyota..
si tom kasi mukhang babae...


pero I like Bill more..

back off, tom.
Bill's mine..


*peace out*



my my my.....


*I'll jump for you*..

wakanampootek..
don't jump tenth time repeating on youtube...


super last song syndrome talaga..

now I know why there are so many girls that are very much obsessed with him...


and I'm of them..



*giggles*



I just can't feel it..




in love with him..
damnit..
never felt like this before..
*blushes*

who can resist this guy..
one hell of a rocker..

and he's just 20....












I'll post another for tom..

*blushes again*..


Wednesday, December 2, 2009

wasted..

paulit-ulit na lang ang buhay..
nakakasawa..

e kung maglaslas na lang kaya ako..
para matapos na to..

Vampire Knight Season 3

Vampire Knight Season 3

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

isang araw ng puno ng kabadtripan..

almost lost 100 peso bill..
(payment supposedly on the bar pin)

made my cell phone die because of entering my wrong PUK code..


wakanampootek..
walang kwentang araw to..


wtf..
ang dami ko nang malas..


*haven't ate dinner*..


that's why I'm stoned..


Monday, November 30, 2009

tuwing alas-kwatro ng madaling araw..



Yesterday I lost my closest friend
Yesterday I wanted time to end
I wonder if my heart will ever mend
I just let you slip away

4 AM forever

Maybe I'll never see you smile again
Maybe you thought that it was all pretend;
All these words that I could never say
I just let them slip away

4 AM forever

Why don't you hear me when I'm calling out to you (to you)
Why don't you listen when I try to make it through (to you)
Goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, you never know
Hold a little tighter

4 AM forever

Maybe one day when I can move along
Maybe someday when you can hear this song
You won't let it slip away

4 AM forever

And I'd wish the sun would never come
It's 4 AM and you are gone
I hope you know you're letting go
It's 4 AM and I'm alone

Why don't you hear me when I'm calling out to you (to you)
Why don't you listen when I try to make it through (to you)
Goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, you never know
Hold a little tighter

Why don't you hear me when I'm calling out to you (to you)
Why don't you listen when I try to make it through (to you)
Goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, you never know
Hold a little tighter

4 AM forever...



4 am forever..
lost prophets......


gtg na nga..
papasok pa ako..

1st subject most favorite..

-math.


I hate math..
I'm numerophobia..

*believe*


free falling..

and I'm free..

tapos biglang heartbreak warfare..

tapos gravity naman..

wahaha.
pootek..

that's how I love John Mayer......


lupet..
his tracks are......

basta, undescribable..

tapos biglang angels and devils..

yoko nang pumasok..

magraradyo na lang ako..

*jokes.*

ayokong tamarin..
baka pag tinamad ako tuloy-tuloy na..

wala na..
yung mga pangarap ko..
pangarap kong makapunta sa land of the rising sun..

pangarap kong matupad ng taong pinapangarap ko ang lahat ng mga pangarap ko..
*make-believing*..



Friday, November 27, 2009

google translator..

gluttonous.

vicious.
notorious.

無駄に..
研究フリーク


fave line?

だけではここで今、私に対しては、言葉は一緒に私の赤ちゃんを歌う知っている。


and also..
a one hell selfish web..

'cause I'm lovin' it.

about the cover..

it was an illustration done by my "coolest" friend..

*drumrolling*

joshua..


he's really good in drawing.
bydk: he did it while listening to our entrep class....and added some pizzaz in my messed-up drawing....


Interpretation:

-there is no such thing as equal world..


*frowning*

Thursday, November 26, 2009

jealousy ride with me part three..!

another wasted story..

oh well.

I don't have a right..
I believe it..

masisisi ba ako?

e wala naman kaming pinagsamahan na kahit ano..
anong laban ko naman dun sa ex-lover nya?!

wala..
taba lang ang meron ako..

ganda..
alindog..
at kasariwaan..

haha..

*laughs*

thinking about him at this moment..


hayaan na lang..

sabi nga nila leah..
"reject mo na bon!"

and I replied..
"hindi ko kaya yun alam nyo naman feelings ko dun sa tao.."

"anong gagawin mo?"

"ewan ko"

"magpapakatanga ka ba?e siraulo yun eh"

"ako rin naman, eh..kaya nga mahal ko yun"



lol..

ciao..

luka's demise..


she died just now..
hindi na nya kinaya yung pang-aabuso namin..

*abuso means that lagi namin syang pinanggigigilan*

kasi she's super cute..


aside from her kakulitan..

she looks like an egg di ba?
tapos she's always sleeping pa..

*misses her*


mas masaya na sya ngayon sa piling ni God....

doon walang manggigigil sa kanya..

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

just a click away..

lupet ng google..
hardcore..




Lifehouse - Good Enough Lyrics @ LyricsTime.com

metrolyrics.

new lyric search engine..
para sa akin ha..
ngayon ko lang naappreciate..

more on lyricsmania kasi ako..
that's why I was called a maniac before.

*connect?*

bad romance.



I want your ugly
I want your disease
I want your everything
As long as it’s free
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

I want your drama
The touch of your hand
I want your leather-studded kiss in the sand
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad, your bad romance

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh--oh-oooh!)
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your horror
I want your design
‘Cause you’re a criminal
As long as your mine
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love-uuhh)

I want your psycho
Your vertigo stick
Want you in my rear window
Baby you're sick
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

You know that I want you
('Cause I'm a freak bitch baby!)
And you know that I need you
I want it bad, your bad romance

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!)
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk passion! baby
Work it
I'm a freak bitch, baby

I want your love and
I want your revenge
I want your love
I don’t wanna be friends

Je veux ton amour
Et je veux ta revanche
Je veux ton amour
I don’t wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I don’t wanna be friends
(Caught in a bad romance)
I don’t wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)
Want your bad romance!

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)
Want your bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance




*woot*

going gaga over lady gaga..




Tuesday, November 24, 2009

in this silence and silhouette dreams..


a track from tokio hotel.
oh well.
astigin.




supposedly I'm gonna make this my blog cover..

kaso may maganda pa dyan



*DREAMING OF BECOMING A FREELANCE PHOTOGRAPHER SOMEDAY..*
kahit EOS lang na camera o SLR ang meron ako masaya na, eh..


wahaha..
some sort of illusions..




hence the title..


Sunday, November 22, 2009

till the end of time..

I saw him again.
wakanampootek..
ang lupet..
after 5 months..
of not seeing him..

grabe..
na-miss ko talaga sya..

yung taong 4 na taon kong inintay..


naks..


sana makita ko na sya ulit..
nagpunta daw sya nung reunion namin sabi ni lyra..


ang dami kong tanong..

sana hindi sya nagbago..

kung may pagkakataon lang ulit..


kaso hindi ko na pwedeng ibalik yung dati..
alam kong imposible na..
dahil may mahal na akong iba..





~yung panahon na mismo ang nagbago para mabago ang lahat ng dapat baguhin.......


pero honestly.,
na-miss ko talaga sya..

wala naman akong nakikitang masama dun..

bookmark thy crunchyroll..

adik na talaga..
ikaw ba naman makawalong buddies..
haha..
kababaw ng putek..

listening to RX 931.

yun lang ang available na station na magaganda ang tugtog..
go gelli..

o di ba alas-tres na nakaharap pa rin ako sa computer..

bongga..




btw..
congrats nga pala kay efren..
galing nya..
cnn hero..
you made fiipinos proud men..
isa kang tunay na lalake..




-tapos na rin ang doc prod ko..
thanks god energetic pa rin ako..

at hindi pa nahuhuli ni papa..

ang spoiled...

Papa:

bon next week na lang tayo manood ng new moon, ha.
siksikan pa sa mga sinehan ngayon, eh..
tsaka bibili ka pa ng libro..



Bonbon:
pa, you promised na, eh..

Papa:
alin bang gusto mong unahin..
yang Edward-Edward mo o yung libro mong isanglibo?

Bonbon:
(napaisip ng matagal bago nakasagot)
basta papa pati lunch libre, ha.?!

Papa:
di ka ba naaawa sa akin?


Bonbon:
I love you much much naman eh..


Papa:
(natahimik)..



I WON......!

wakanampootek..
at least hindi ako makikipagsiksikan sa "ECrs"..


may instant lunch pa ako..
hahahaha..

grandslam..
total libre to..
wala na akong gastos..


W.

~end.

one less lonely girl..

asar na ako sa kantang yan ha..
sooper lss ko na..

"one less lonely girl"

wah justin beiber ano bang meron ka?!



ulit..

"one less lonely girl"

"one less lonely girl"

"one less lonely girl"..

hanggang dun lang alam ko, eh..
download ko na lang later..

one less lonely girl..

Friday, November 20, 2009

crunchyrollan na..!!!!

http://www.crunchyroll.com/user/deadevidence




love it..

hoping to win friends..
good friends I should say..

wah pootek walang tubeGgggGGggg..!

asar..
grr.

bu*****t..

mamayang alas-dose pa ng tanghale magkakaroon..
anakanampootek talaga..
e alas-12 ang pasok ko..

I don't wanna be in love..!

I came here to wait for you..


wahaha..
radio lss..

I don't wanna be in love..!

Thursday, November 19, 2009

shine me down..

screaming more..more..

ganda ng mga lyrics nila..
pootek the best.

imotik..
(emotic)


I listen if only for a while But I can't decide if I'm aware that I'm on trial
- ALL I EVER WANTED


Communicating thoughts of ways.To never have to speak again.Let me be the fire in your head ...
- BEYOND THE SUN




examples pa lang yan..


eto malupit..

" THERE'S NO MORE LOVE !!! "

whoo..


What a shame, what a shame, To judge a life that you can't change"..


astig di ba?



curse of curves..

naisumpa na ng pagkakataon..
ngayon ko lang napatunayan na mabilis pala bumalik ang karma..

epektib pala pag yung masama nagawa sa yo tapos pag binalik na sa kanya..
mas masama pa..
mas malala..


anything?!

bagay lang yun sa kanya..

megalomaniac kasi eh..
paniwalang-paniwala sa supremacy..

wala talaga..as in wala..

ngayon lang ako tinamad ng ganito..

argh..

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

empire state of mind..

now playing..
sa radyo namin..

yung facebook parang fs na..grr..

may layout chorva na..

be back later..

my 100th post..=0

congratulating myself..
nakanaks..
achievement..

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

me and my injured (pa rin) hand..





hands down..!
(bali na)..

bawal..
igalaw..
magbuhat ng mabigat..
ideretso..
mabunggo ng kahit na anong bagay..

itaas ng bongga...

masarap ang bawal sabi nila..
pero anak ng pootek talaga..
kaya ngayon its been two weeks na ganun pa rin..
ayaw mawala ng sakit.

tired of being somebody's nobody..

asus..
inglisan na naman..

wala lang..
nagdadrama lang ako..

Monday, November 16, 2009

and the rest you can't figure out..=0

Some of the ugliest things took the longest time to make.And some of the easiest habits are the hardest one's to break.And I'm not asking for value nor the pain but I am asking.For a way out of this lie - IN MEMORY ^^

a track from shinedown..

cool, cool..

shout out worthy..

galeng..

Friday, November 13, 2009

wala na ayoko na pag nabad-trip talaga ako..

ang dami ko nang nasakripisyo ha.....

nakukunsumi na ako..

asar...


gRrRRrRrRRRr..

mangangagat na ako...

rawr..

wala akong magawa

o ayan na maniniwala na ako..
kasi naman no..
I need miracles talaga..
kaso wala pala..

lintik na nero 9 yan o..
pag ako naasar talaga bahala na..
bibili na lang ako ng installer..

asar..

grrrr....

wala akong magawa

o ayan na maniniwala na ako..
kasi naman no..
I need miracles talaga..
kaso wala pala..

lintik na nero 9 yan o..
pag ako naasar talaga bahala na..
bibili na lang ako ng installer..

asar..

grrrr....

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Oh gravity..

Urbandub's APPARITION will be releasing soon..

di ko na alam kung anong uunahin ko..

kung yung obsesyon ko sa NEW MOON..
o yung pagbili ng aparisyon...


sus..
kahit isa lang dyan ang matupad..okey na eh..

christmas gift.

breaking it..

and still..
keeping it damaged..

seeing him is like tasting hell.yet I'm still resisting to have it..

yikes..


and yet..
he's so far away..



di ko alam kung totoo..
pero kung totoo man..
titigil na lang ako..
sino nga ba naman ako..
at anong karapatan ko di ba?

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

silent prayers..

Lord, sana po gumaling na po itong kamay ko para po bumalik na sa normal itong sirkulasyon ng buhay ko.

kalooban po din ninyo na maipasa ko tong second semester para po walang pagsisihan ang mga magulang ko sa pagpapaaral sa akin..

tsaka po..
Lord, kailangan ko na po ng bagong pag-ibig..
pero po kung wala po talaga..
okey lang po.
masaya naman po ang buhay dahil tinanggap ko na po kayo sa puso ko.

kagatan na..

grabe na itong addiction ko sa vk ha..
kakasapakatin ko pa tong si maniong para makapag-download ako ng videos..


dead na dead..
pootek...


got to go..
pasok na ako ng school..

gagawa na ng mga bisyo..

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

steal my heart....

uyyyyyy..
things are getting weirder..
kabaliw..

para na naman akong tanga..
kailan ba dadating yan..
yung taong magnanakaw..
ng puso ko?

naks..

mukha daw akong chinese..
sa mata..
sa kutis?
I don't think so..
hehe..
pinoy na pinoy kamo..
babad na babad sa araw...






oh well.
ayun getting VAMPIRIC now..
vampire knight..
twilight saga.
wala na..
next week na nga showing ng new moon wala pa rin akong pambili kahit isang popcorn na malaki..yung cheese flavor...





getting obsessed.
nakakainis lang kasi wala akong mapaglabasan ng obsesyon ko..
mahirap para sa katulad kong weirdo ang magkwento ng out of this world..

kaya nga ako naghahanap ng magnanakaw eh..
para naman kahit papano may makikinig sa kin....

Monday, November 9, 2009

youtube downloader..

sana naman bumilis yung net namin..
para bonggahan na ang pagdownload ng VK..
hindi yung sa FB ako post ng post..
mahirap na mapagkamalan pa akong obsess..

..one tragic saturday evening..

masaya na sana dahil pumasok si inspirasyon at panggabi din sila kaso.........


gabi..
almost 7 PM na..
backrider ako sa tricycle..

PLC subdivision..
naganap ang hindi inaasahan..
hindi ko alam kung nasarapan lang sya o sadya talaga syang pumreno..
ang sarap pa naman ng kain ko ng sugar-coated kundol na binili ko..
trapik pa naman nun..
kaso aksidenteng NATAMAAN ng lintek na tricycle na yun ang kaliwang braso ko..

ang kaliwa kong kamay.
ang aking multi-tasking na super precious na kamay..
ay nabali..

here's the pinakamalupit na line..

"miss okey ka lang ba?"
"OO OKEY LANG AKO!!!!"(sabay talikod)

tanong ulit...
inirapan ko na hindi pa madala..

MGA GANGSTERS KASI KAYA LALO AKONG NABWISIT..
ang sya pa ang maangas..


aba naman..
sino bang nakasagasa ako ba?
anak ng.....*********
ako na nga nasaktan nag-sorry pa..
SORRY LANG..

ngayon..
martes..
masakit na masakit sya ngayon..
namamaga yung pasang iniwan..
at apektado na ang buo kong braso..


lahat depektib na..

physical..
mental..
emotional outlook..
at lovelife....



naman..
basted na nga ako ganito pa..



---just pray bon..have faith.

me and my reborn phone.

yes..
napagawa na sya ulit..

nakabili na ko ng charger na mahal pa rin kahit tinawaran ko dahil hindi naman original yun..
at sana mapalitan ko na yung phone ko sooner..

thank to my otou-san talaga..
kaso nagawa ko pang magalit kahapon kasi nga ayoko na yung ipagawa..
kahiya naman.....

Sunday, November 8, 2009

pera na nga naging bato pa..

special thanks to my loving otou-san for paying the repair of my deteriorated phone..

grabe 300 pesos yun..

reprogram daw ang kaso.
nagawa nga..

lowbatt naman..
anak ng putek..
kala ko matatapos na ang problema ko.

kala k0 back to normal texting mode..
yun pala pagsubok na naman..

Friday, November 6, 2009

asar..

ayaw mag-upload ang mga vids ko..

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

new playlist on the rise..

posting it now..

life is always hard..


•Down in a local bar
Out on the Boulevard
The sound of an old guitar
Is saving you from sinking
It's a long way down, It's a long way

Back like you never broke
You tell a dirty joke
He touches your leg
And thinks He's getting close
For now you let him
Just this once
Just for now
And just like that
It's over.

Don't turn away
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Don't be afraid
But keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard
For the Belle of the Boulevard

In all your silver rings
In all your silken things
That song you softly sing
Is keeping you from breaking
It's a long way down, it's a long way

Back here you never lost
You shake the shivers off
You take a drink
To get your courage up
Can you believe it?
Just this once
Just for now
And just like that
It's over

Don't turn away
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Don't be afraid
But keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard
For the Belle of the Boulevard

Please hold on, it's alright
Please hold on, it's alright
Please hold on

Down in a local bar
Out on the boulevard
The sound of an old guitar
Is saving you

Don't turn away
Dry your eyes, dry you eyes
Don't be afraid
Keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard
For the Belle of the Boulevard•



-belle of the boulevard - dashboard confessional..
sa labas ko na lang idadownload

panibagong lss..

-7 days without you..

Sitting here counting the hours
Waiting for the sun to kiss the sea
Paralyzed by the fragrance of the flowers
They remind me of you and me

Chorus
There's one love in a lifetime
Our two hearts of a kind
These three reasons you'll be mine
For when five and six are through
Seven days without you, Seven days without you.

Making plans just to stop the aching
Chasing thoughts from a million miles away
Hypnotized as another dawn is breaking
I rehearse the words I want to say

There's one love in a lifetime
Our two hearts of a kind
These three reasons you'll be mine
For when five and six are through
Seven days without you, Seven days without you

Well I will find a way into your heart
So let me try and sleep before we know

There's one love in a lifetime
Our two hearts of a kind
These three reasons you'll be mine
For when five and six are through
Seven days without you, Seven days without you
•7 days without you - athlete

love the track..
di ko nga lang sya madownload..
asar..


related to past experience:

-I haven't seen him yet..
kaya para akong tanga lately..

may problema pa ako sa kanya..
at itatago ko na lang yun sa sarili ko.
kung kaya ko nga bang itago..

e ang daming nakakakita ng pagbabago ko..

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

ma.nic


new moon mania na...
sinong sasama?
I want to watch alone sana..
kaso baka madiskaril pa..
kaya kailangan ko ng kasama..

problem arises..

haggardness tong araw na ito..
parang joke..
na-miss ko nga silang lahat..
para namang may kulang...

ang bigat bigat ng loob ko ngayon..
parang sasabog ang dibdib ko..

di ko alam kung ano tong bumabagabag sa akin..

masyado na kasing puno tong problema ko..
di ko na alam ang uunahin ko..

Monday, November 2, 2009

wait teka ang sakit sa bangs..

ang hirap gampanan ang papel na ayaw at napipilitan ka lang gampanan..

para akong pilit pinapakanta ng gitarista kahit wala na ako sa tono..

buti na lang nalaman ko na agad..
such a great disappointment..

kundi tatawagin ko na naman ang sarili kong tanga..
anakanam..
ang hirap ng sitwasyon ko ngayon..
para akong garter..
nagkakabuhul-buhol na..
nahihirapan na akong ibalik sa dating hugis..


Walking out the door this morning
Wondering what it is that?s going on with you, on with you
Thinking of a way to say I?m sorry
For something that I?m not sure I do, sure I do

So come on baby, let me in
And show me what this really is

?Cause something must have made you say that
What did I do to make you say that to me?
Something must have made you so mad
What can I do to make you say come back to me?

Hoping for a moment that I turn around
And you?ll be coming after me, after me
?Cause all that I can say is that it?s obvious
It?s obvious you?re all I see, all I see

So come on, baby, let me in
And show me what this really is about
?Cause I can?t read you
Come on baby, let me in
And show me what this really is

?Cause something must have made you say that
What did I do to make you say that to me?
Something must have made you so mad
What can I do to make you say come back to me?
Come back to me

And I?ll be here in the morning if you say stay
If you say stay to me, oh
And I?ll be here in the morning if you say stay
If you say stay to me, oh
And I?ll be here in the morning if you say stay
If you say stay to me, oh

Something must have made you say that
What did I do to make you say that to me?
Something must have made you so mad
What can I do to make you say come back to me?

Something must have made you say that
What did I do to make you say that to me?
Something must have made you so mad
What can I do to make you say come back to me?


astig..love that track..
I'm not asking for reconciliation..
I'm searching for someone to find me..