Monday, December 6, 2010

I came along, I wrote a song for you.

and all the things that you do.
And it was all yellow.
So then I took my turn.
and all the things that have done.
Cause they were all yellow.

*mali-mali ata lyrics ko. nakakahiya nomon.
Tumblr is undergoing database problems kase, so dito muna siguro ako magsusulat ng mga rants ko.
I know mababasa at mababasa nya rin to.
May lahing stalker ang bruha.
Hahaha. Bakla ka talaga!

oasis.

LET THERE BE LOVE.

Wala. Enjoy talaga tong araw na to.
Kahit wala pa kong tulog.
Hahahahaha!

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Taking Advantage.

Oi, hindi, ah! utang na loob.
Spoiled brat yun, pano ako makakapalag dun?

Five Days.

Oo. Five Days. Five Days pa lang.

Ang hinihingi ko sa kanya, TWO YEARS. Pagkatapos nun, pwede na.
Pwede na akong magmahal.

*bakit Two Years?

Kasi kelangan maka-graduate muna ako. Kelangan matapos muna ang responsibilidad ko bilang tao. Kelangan maipakita ko na kahit ganito ako, na kahit may sakit ako sa pag-iisip ay kakayanin kong harapin ang mundo.

Makes sense.

Pero sa loob ng five days, 3/5. Pano pag nasanay ako na lagi syang nandyan? Pano pag hinahanap-hanap ko na presence nya? Pano pag isang araw, nagising na lang ako..

NA MAHAL KO NA SYA?
*frightened.

AYOKO PA KASI. HANDA NA AKO, OO. PERO AYOKO PA RIN.

Basta. Tao ako, eh. May impulse. Hindi mapipigil ang emosyon.

Sinubukan ko na wag muna. Pero hindi ko pala kaya.
Go bon! Sige, Kaya mo yan.

*Ang kwento ng nangyari kahapon.

Gabi. Ika-23 ng Nobyembre, taong kasalukuyan.
Sinabi ko naman sa kanya na hindi muna. Kasi nga baka masanay ako, di ba?
Kaso, itong si Adik (oo literal), oo sya nga, hinatid ako.
HANGGANG KANTO.
hahahahahaha! Kinikilig ako bakit?
Basta, ganun pala mag-alaga ang isang kapatid na lalake.
Basta. Tuwang-tuwa ako. First time, eh.
*at may mga tsismosang kapitbahay pa. pag nalaman ng nanay ko, tapos talaga ako.

Hindi ko kasi ma-explain yung nararamdaman ko.
Ikaw, nailalarawan mo ba yung smiling face ko? Kung gano ka-wide? yung tipong gusto ko nang tumili kasi nga kiri ako at kailangan ko nang ilabas ito?

Kakasabi ko lang, di ba?

Nagpaalam na po ako.
Opo.
Di ba?
Wala rin naman. Bakit ipipilit ko pa?

Tsaka may naghihintay na sa kin sa Japan.
Pano to? Dalawa kayo?

No. What I'm trying to say is that, yung taong ito..... ay.......................

*next entry para bitin*.

Isang araw.

(Let Sya=isang kaibigan at Ako=ako. syempre.)

Ako: Sana pag may nagustuhan ako ulit hindi na taga-rito.
Sya: si *ano* tagarito, ah.
Ako: Kaya nga nagsisisi ako.
Sya: At si Labintatlong Letra ng Pangalan.
Ako: E bakit hindi naman kaklase?
Sya: sabi mo yung hindi taga-rito.
Ako: Oo nga.
Sya: ...
Ako: ..
Ako: ..
Ako: .. Tsaka.. *NOW PLAYING - THE ONLY EXCEPTION*
Sya: Di ikaw na.
Ako: *basag*.

ang pagbabalik

sa tunay kong mundo.

Thursday, October 7, 2010

birthdays to the nth power.

it's been two weeks na kaya pero ako hanggang ngayon, ngayon na october na, hindi pa rin ako nakakamove-on!

iba kasi siguro talaga yung pakiramdam kapag yung taong gusto mo pupunta sa pinakamahalagang araw ng buhay ko. gosh, I really mean it! mahalaga talaga sya sa kin.
(hindi ko sya iimbitahin kung pinagnanasaan ko lang sya, hello.)


at tsaka, may mali kasi ako, eh.
HINDI KO KASI SYA NAASIKASO. you know, special guest ko sya pero dedmahan kami sa bahay. yung tipong ayan na bon oh, tutuklawin ka na lang ayaw mo pang kausapin. dammit!

e kasi gawin daw bang waitress-turned-dishwasher yung debutante.



SIGURO, HANGGANG DOON NA LANG.
MUNA.
(BAKIT MAY MUNA?)

may 19th birthday pa ako hello! char lang. sa 21 pa siguro ako maghahanda ulit.. :)

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Headfirst Slide

in a Cooperstown on a Bad Bet..
-Fall Out Boys..

wala. kanina pa to now playing sa utak ko nakakainis.. lols..

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

((((((((((

hindi ko naman kasi ginusto. hindi ko naman pinilit ang sarili ko.

NADALA AKO SA TUKSO.

birthdays.

and I'm greeting myself for I have survived 18 years of existence in this mad world.

wow. ang saya talaga. iba ang level ng euphoria ko ngayon.

tapos wala pang tumatayo sa kama para hulihin ang magaling nilang bunso na nasa harap na naman ng computer.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

oi blogspot!

me is missin' u! Sensya na matagal taung hndi nagkita.
Since aug. 26 pa pala. Wag ka mag-alala. Mula ngayon, hndi na kita pb2yaan.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

things were better than they are.

ahahaha. hindi lang talaga ako makamove-on kahapon. parang iba ang direksyon ng utak ko.
teka. nagbago na ba pamantayan ko sa boys? bakit may braces na ata ang nagpapakawala sa eternal heartbeat ko.
oh well. sabi nga ni mark.
"ganyan talaga mga gusto ni bonbon, eh. mga kakaiba. pero magaling."

ahahaha. tignan mo na lang si r, eh. hindi ba kakaiba yun?
dakilang masungit lang sya. kaya hanggang ngayon kahit friendship na lang habol ko. parang feeling ko 'still swooning' pa rin.
pero wala na talaga. kung sya.

si L--? ayun. crush.
"and I can't get you out of my dreams.."
shocks! isang araw pa lang...!!

eyesore.

forget me not.
those weren't your words.


yun lang naalala ko shizz..

magiging parte ka na ng buhay ko.
ano? hindi mo pa ramdam? how come..
sige. ipaparamdam ko sa yo..
ano? hindi mo ako kilala?
sige. papakilala muna ako.


hi. L--. I'm Ella.

*kabog, mehn.

o hi.

mapapatawad mo rin ako.
masyado lang kasi akong pinaglalaruan ng taong yun kaya hindi kita mabigyan ng oras ngayon.

sorry. not now. I won't be able to see you in the meantime.
I got a mountain-load of things to do. and a lot of experiences to learn from.

*emo-emo kasi matagal akong hindi nakapag-blogger.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Painting Flowers.

Dear All-Time Low.
dumaan ang Dear Maria, Count Me In. ang cover ng Umbrella, ang Stay Awake, ang Cover ng Alejandro na talagang tinilian ko ng bongga.
pero shocks, nakahanap na ata ako ng katapat.

lyrics here:

Strange maze, what is this place?
I hear voices over my shoulders.
Nothings making sense at all.
Wonder, why do we race?
And every day were running in circles.
Such a funny way to fall.
Try to open up my eyes
Im hopin for the chance to make it alright.

When I wake up
The dream isnt done
I wanna see your face and know I made it home.
If nothing is true
What more can I do?
I am still painting flowers for you.
Woah

Throw my cards, give you my heart.
Wish we could start all over.
Nothing's making sense at all.
Try to open up my eyes,
Im hopin for a chance to make it alright.


When I wake up
The dream isnt done
I wanna see your face and know I made it home.
If nothing is true
What more can I do?
I am still painting flowers for you.
I am still painting flowers for you.

(I heard everything you said. I dont wanna lose my head.)

When I wake up
The dream isnt done
I wanna see your face and know I made it home.
If nothing is true
What more can I do?
I am still painting flowers for you.
I am still painting flowers for you.
I am still painting flowers for you.

nervous breakdown..

I'm so over being sick
I'm so sick of this relationship
Go get a doctor and an ambulance
I need your kiss it's the medicine
It get's me moving going back and forth
Everybody grab a map and help me chart the course
I brought a compass it's reading north
It doesn't really matter if it's back and forth

I thought that I should tell you (Whoa)
My world is crashing down, again
I'm spinning round calling out "I'm falling down"
I'm spinning round calling out "I'm falling I'm falling"
And I don't care, I don't care what you think of me right now
Cause I'm gonna have a breakdown

My only choice is to over react
Is this a voice or just a panic attack?
I need a doctor to help me try to relax
No one ever told me I was living too fast

I thought I should tell you (Whoa)
My world is crashing down, again
I'm spinning round calling out "I'm falling down"
I'm spinning round calling out "I'm falling I'm falling"
I don't care, I don't care, what you think of me right now
Cause I'm gonna have a breakdown

You know me all to well but you never had the chance
To find out who I really am, who I really am
You know me all to well but you never had the chance
To find out who I really am, who I really am
I'm spinning round, I'm calling out
I'm gonna have a breakdown

I'm spinning round calling out I'm falling down
I'm spinning round calling out I'm falling I'm falling
I don't care, I don't care, what you think of me right now
Cause I'm gonna have a breakdown


alam mo ba ang laman ng isip ko ngayon?
IKAW. OO IKAW.

Monday, August 16, 2010

WALA AKONG NASULAT DITO KASI NALIPAT KO NA SA TUMBLR.
MASAYA TONG ARAW NA TO, AT IPAPANGAKO KO SA SARILI KONG MANGYAYARI ANG PINAPANGARAP KO.

MASAYA AKO. MASAYANG-MASAYA AKO.
READY TO PLASTER MY BIGGEST SMILE.

NOW PLAYING:
DON'T WASTE THE PRETTY - ALLISON IRAHETA FT. ORIANTHI.

this is war.

you know, ganito ako lagi. walang definite decision. walang maayos na pagkakaabalahan.

at minsan, nawawalan na ng pakiramdam.

kung maaari nga lang akong mawalan ng pakealam, matagal ko nang ginawan ng paraan..

NOW PLAYING..
Syndicate, The Fray.

"we are closer.."

grabe, walang pagsidlan.

yung tipong.. 'nagtago lang naman ako kaya hindi nila ako nakita. oh well, ano nga ba namang silbi? may pagkakataon pa bang nakalaan sa kin? o makikilala ko kaya sila? e di ba, yung TAONG YUN NA MISMO yung hindi na nakakakilala? di ba? remember last July 10? *o di ba tanda ko pa.. TINIGNAN NYA LANG AKO. as in.'

august 16 2010, about 2.00 Pm.

I was like, badtrip po ako kasi I ended up doing nothing. pero lucky day naman kasi napasaya ako ng isang tama ng green mango sa esem perbyu. mmmmmmmmmmmmm..

pero mukhang magaling talagang maglaro si tinatawag na tadhana.

alam mo yung feeling na nagmamadali na ako umuwe kase alas-dos na at umabot ako sa quota ni ama dahil may pinakuha sa akin si mama sa avon tapos pinatawag pa ako sa bahay just to verify her purchases?
tapos.. tapos..
may nakita akong nag.lalakad.
sino?
si pers lab lang naman at yung gelpren nya.
*ok, maganda sya. and my first time to see her, actually.
HINDI KO HINILING YUN. BIGLA NA LANG SYANG NANGYARE.
O BAKA NATUPAD LANG ANG PANGARAP KONG PALAYAIN ANG TAONG HINDI MINSANG NAGING AKIN.

grabe, dun pa sila sa sakayan. buti na lang nauna traysikel ko.

yun lang. I assumed my eyes would produce tears like rain, yet it didn't happen.
"o bakit hindi ka pumatak?."
"wala namang dapat iiyak, di ba?"


BOOYEAH! nakikipag-usap ako sa mata ko. naku, malala na tong psycho prob ko.
hahaha!
and this IS MY MOST REWARDING BLOG ENTRY. EVER.
history!

Saturday, August 14, 2010

wala akong magawa.

wala talaga, eh.
magpapakaligaya na lang siguro ako. para mapatunayan ko sa sarili ko na ok na ako.

ang number 14.

ikaw-14 ng agosto, taong kasalukuyan. isa sa pinakanakaka-bwiset na petsa ng buhay ko. bakit? kasi ayoko ng number 14.


basta ayoko talaga. ayoko, ayoko, ayoko.
sawa na akong magdalamhati sa araw na yan. sawa na akong manahimik at palagi na lang mag-isip ng mga failures na nagawa ko.

at ang number 14 ay laging nasa kalendaryo, diba?
kaya 12 beses din ako nagi-emo sa bawat taon.

Monday, August 9, 2010

we all have feelings then

we're all entitled to..
but I never asked.
so let me thank you for your time and try not to waste anymore mine.
get out here fast.
I hate to break it to you babe, but I'm not drowning...."
-King of Anything, Sara Bareilles.


wala, medyo kelangan 'i-have-to-be-in-a-mood-para-masagutan ko ng maayos ang exam'

midterms week na kasi.
ok here we go again I'm starting to cram like hell.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

sana sa tumblr ko to ipo-post.

pero since it's too personal. dito na lang siguro kasi wala namang nakakarinig sa akin pag dito.
walang nakakapansin.
walang nakakaramdam.


at wala naman akong balak ipaintinde sa iyo ang lahat.



dear *insert your effing name here*,

unang-una sa lahat, maraming salamat sapagkat napagtitiisan mo tong blog ko. dahil alam kong walang kakwenta-kwenta ang post ko. I mean, LAHAT NG POSTS KO.

at pangalawa, may itatanong lang ako?
hoy, nasanay ka siguro sa paulit-ulit, ano? pasensya ka na, ha..kung gusto mo ng masyadong power-trip ang dating ng blog, sa tumblr mo na lang ako i-stalk. mas magaganda, mas malilinis, at matitino ang posts ko dun kahit hindi. blogspot kase, is more personal, than tumblr. tumblr consists mostly of reblogs, images that you can relate on, ganon. *pagod ako mag-ingles, grr.


at pangatlo,
sana kung mabibigyan lang ako ng pagkakataong pasalamatan ka, o kaya naman mabayaran ko ng utang na loob ang pagtitiis sa walang kwentang blog na ito, gagawin ko. salamat ng marami, ikaw na ang aking virtual friend. alam ko someday magkikita rin tayo. malalaman ko rin kung sino ka. ikaw na responsable sa blog views ko na 100 plus na kasi assuming ako..


at the back of my mind, I'm saying
(sana ikaw sya.) pag hindi mo na-gets, magtatampo na ako!

now whut?

wala akong maisip na post. if I only have one, kanina ko pa ti-nayp.
ano nga bang gumugulo sa isipan ko ngayon?

bakit ko nga ba kinumpirma yung friend request?
para ano nga ba?
para saan? anong purpose?

*at bakit andaming question mark, dammit.

naiiyak ako. that's all.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

she's a monster.

beautiful monster..
beautiful monster..
but I don't mind..

bakit ba nae-lss ako, eh..
if I were a boy..

*buntong-hininga.

Friday, July 30, 2010

yun lang.

gusto kong matuwa. gusto kong tumawa ng malakas. yung tipong isisigaw ko lahat ng tawa na meron ako.

kaso anak ng tootoot talaga, di ba. hindi ko pa rin magawa.
hindi ko kaya..

aww.

i only found the parang 'sneak peek' nung vid..
at dahil blog ko naman to at normal lang naman ang maging abnormal ang writer, I will post this.




Don't solve the problem,
when danger is bitter.
Far away you stock them,
in cages and teather

And all bridges you've burned,
leave you trapped off at all sides.
And now the tables do turn,
and it's all gone, what's left for you.

[Chorus]
And when the sky is falling,
don't look outside the window.
Step back and hear i'm calling.
Give up, don't take the fastroad.

It's just your doubt that binds you.
Just drop those thoughts behind you, now.
Change your mind.
Let go too soon.

Sit down, you're sinking,
there's no one to watch you.
Skip town, you're thinking,
there's no one to stop you.

And all the bridges you've burned,
leave you trapped off at all sides.
And now the tables do turn,
and it's all gone, what's left for you.

[Chorus]

Don't run away,
Start feeling fine.
It's better than your worst, worst day.
No words to say, I'll give you mine,
and pocket all the hurt, just stay.
Don't run away.
It's better than your worst, worst day.

And when the sky is falling,
don't look outside the window.
Step back and hear i'm calling.
Give up, don't take the fastroad.

[Chorus]

Don't run away.
Change your mind.
Let go too soon.
[x4]


*nilagay ko pa yung lyrics.
pwede naman ata tong i-save sa notepad, eh.

I should post this.

hindi pwedeng hindi baka maloka ako pag hindi ko ginawa.



The Last Song - The All-American Rejects



Syempre, one of the best tracks in the whole wide universe..
It Ends Tonight - The All-American Rejects.

nung una ko tong narinig sa jam, akala ko talaga payat si tyson.
grabe, dito pa lang, he's freaking sizzling hot..
oo na bonipasya normal lang naman lumandi.



ok.. will post my most favorite aar song.. later.. :)

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

cooler than me.

di ikaw na.
ganyan naman ang kalakaran, eh.
pag ikaw na yung tradisyonal, di na sila maghahanap ng iba.
kungsabagay, matagal ka na sa trono mong yan.
sila ang nagluklok sa yo. at kailangan tumagal ka dyan.

*maliban na lang kung magkasakit ka. ewan ko, ha.

Monday, July 26, 2010

I just wanted to say that.

hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon palagi na lang ikaw ang iikutan ng mundo ko.

hello, marunong na akong mag-drive ngayon.. I'm starting to move forward.

so goodbye for now, for good.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

It's Over.

I. 

I killed myself.

It's the last shot that has left

and my mind itself

Drowned my thoughts onto death.


II.

It's over in a blink of an eye

I'm fed up and terrified

My eyes sees black and gray

It kills me with nothing to say

III.

He is my life

He's the reason why I'm blind

My Blackheart screams and fall

He was the last thing I saw


IV.

It flashes all back 

with his words I am locked

It's over before I cried

It ends before I died.

Poem Written by: Andrei Greyman.


*I just don't get the effin' message.

Saturday, July 17, 2010

dinggin mo

ang tibok ng puso ko..
umaawit sa iyo..


*anong sunod?

kanta to sa Endless Love Autumn Tale.

I just need somebody to love.......................

*beiber fever ngayon dito sa bahay.
and my unii-chan is like, *bon, takte ano ba yang pinapakinggan mo?*


"I don't need too much, just somebody to love"

ganito ang epekto ng buhay pag madaling-araw. dapat kasi 12 am ako gigising, kaso hindi na kinaya ng powers ko. kaya yun. enjoy lang ng kaunti.
gusto kong paalisin silang lahat.
gusto kong mapag-isa.
gusto kong magwala.

pero as usual, wala naman akong magagawa.

andito kasi silang lahat ngayon.
hano nga ba namang choice ko, di ba?

I will never say never..!!!!

*feeling aydowl si Beiber, ah.. hahahao.
pramis, ngayon lang ako natuwa sa kanta nya.
syempre aside sa "You Smile, I Smile", na talagang pinakilig ako ng libong-libong boltahe.
pramis, maganda naman kasi talaga.


pag di ka pa natuwa dito ewan ko na lang.

Saturday, July 10, 2010

you can't be too careful anymore.

ang gago ko.
pinalampas ko pa. di ba?
alam kong hindi na mauulit yun.
hindi na talaga.
isang beses ko lang hiniling yun.
ang wish ba twice natutupad?

pag nag-wish ako ulet.
sinuswerte ba ako?
ayoko na. hiyang-hiya na ako.
char. pero deep inside wag ka.. hahahha.

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

di sige pipe ka na. pero hindi ako bulag.

hindi ako makamove-on. shizz.
hirap ako sa ganito. ang makalimot.

ok, nandito na rin lang. ikukwento ko na.

ganito kase yun:

wala. nabubwisit ako sa lalaking titig ng titig ng titig ng titig.
nakaka*toot-toot*
honga.

tapos yung tipong ayaw magsalita. Eff.
eff.
yung gusto atang ipaabot ang kanyang mensahe sa pamamagitan ng pagtitig.
what the effing heck, hindi po ako mind-reader, tsong!
matuto kang magsalita. at ako, bilang babae ay may tinatawag na intuition.
ano yon, paranoia? paulit-ulit kitang sususpetchahan?
at take note, may nakakita sa yo.

kaya stop denying that you don't know anything.

at sana next time.
MATUTO KANG MAGSALITA.
ANG TAGAL.
ANG TAGAL-TAGAL KO NANG HINIHILING NA KAUSAPIN MO AKO.

ay, pipe ka pala.
nakalimutan ko.
sareh.

nalito ako sa title ko.

I missed you.

hello, blogspot!
it's been a longgggg time.

onga matagal na rin mula nang huli tayong magkita. won't you agree?
*I'm talking at my monitor right now.

sareh.
I just missed you..
ganito kalaki oh.

grabe 2.43 am na pala. lesson 7 pa lang ako.
sino ba namang makakatapos nang nakaharap sa computer?

ok. kaya yan.
I can do it, baby!
I know, I know, I know.

Sunday, July 4, 2010

tongenuh.

hambastos.
hambastos talaga.
alam kong wala kang obligasyon sa akin kaso pwede naman diba?

di i-request mo sa akin na i-remove yung tag.

hindi yung hindi ka nagsasalita.
nakakabadtrip kaya!

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

epic fail.

I always am.
kaso iba ata ang failure ngayon.
mas masakit. mas mahirap. mas nakakatakot kasi baka may gawin akong hindi ko pa nagagawa kahit na minsan.
yung gagawin ko e hindi nila alam. kasi whatever might fucking happen, hindi naman ako papayagan.
so what's the use of asking?


Thursday, June 24, 2010

oo na gagawa na ako ng asaynment!

kesa magmukmok, magmarakulyo ako dito.
mananahimik na lang ako at mag-aaral
isa pa wala rin naman akong mababago sa kapalarang itinakda.

o di ba. I've been sitting here for three hours.
ganito ako katamad.
ganito ako kawalang-kwenta.

salamat.
nakilala ko na ang sarili ko.

I'm supposedly doing my accounting assignment.

kaya siguro hanggang ngayon di ko pa ginagawa kasi nga
naboboring ako.
amboring boring boring ng buhay ko.
sasakay ako sa bus tapos pagpunta ko ng ayala tatalon ako sa isang building na may pinakamaraming floor.
tapos sisigaw ako ng *aaah ang sarap*
tapos basag na yung bungo ko.
di na ko magpapaalam sa magulang ko.
ayoko kasi sa lahat yung hindi ako pinapayagan.
kaya nga umaalis para mapatunayan kung deserving na ngang maging independent, eh. tapos kulang na lang isaksak sa lalamunan ko na kung hindi ako aalis dito na lang ako sa bahay matulog maghapon.

potek naiiyak na naman ako.
nagsasama-sama na ang mga problema ko.

dream wedding??

syempre makikiuso tayo, june nga pala ngayon ano?


GUSTO KO SA JAPAN AKO IKAKASAL.
O KAYA KUNG HINDI MAN, SA MANILA CATHEDRAL, KUNG HINDI MAN AKO PAYAGANG MAGPA-CONVERT INTO BORN-AGAIN CHRISTIAN.

o kaya sa BORACAY NA RIN.. TUESDAY VARGAS' INSPIRED.
nyaha..

BEACH WEDDING PANG-MAYAMAN LANG YUN DI BA?
PERO KUNG MAYAMAN NA SIGURO AKO NUN SA JAPAN NA LANG NO! MANGANGARAP NA RIN LANG AKO TATAASAN KO NA.


and this long story will begin. introduction pa lang yon, ok.

  • masaya kung buong family andun. sa side nya at sa side ko.
  • motif? of course, I will wear the white traje. obsessed ako sa color black. maganda yun para sa mga guests, sponsors, abay, ganon. and the groom? white na rin siguro para parehas kami.
  • reception? sa beach na rin of course. masarap ang pagkain pag maraming buhangin, eh.
  • ninong at ninang? abay? siguro, former teachers, mentors, people na involved at yung naka-witness ng pagmamahalan namin..
  • honeymoon? dun na rin no! sayang pa budget kung mag-iiba pa ng venue. tsaka syempre mamimili na lang din ako ng place yung all-in one na.



at kung kanino??

dati pangarap ko na kung sino yung first boyfriend ko, sya na ang mapapangasawa ko.
pero sabi nga ni God, He will provide the best for the rest.

kaya kung darating nga sya, syempre, hindi ko na palalampasin ang oportunidad.
kasi sya na yung bubuo sa pagkatao ko, eh. so sya na si 'the best'.





gusto mo ng paulit-ulit?? o yan.. masaya to.. pramis..ultimo facebook ko biktima na rin. at tumblr at youtube at yung mga yayaya oh yeah sites ko..
and this is my most favorite wedding vid.
of all time.
kahit na first time ko.
ito talaga yung hahanap-hanapin ng balintataw ko.


iba ang envy sa paghanga.
so kung sa akin mangyayari to.
ay mali.
next post na.
pahahabain na naman kasi ito ng kadramahan ko.

eksaherado.

ang over as in over-acting ko naman.
nagiging uneasy ako pag yung mga bagay na hindi naman dapat makita e nakikita ko pa.
I know how blessed I am, pero pag yung nakaraan na yung kalaban ko, ang hirap, as in ang hirap kalabanin.
*redundancy check, baby. sanay akong gumamit ng 'as in' sa posts ko.

ok, crying time..

TUMBLR MEET-UP.

pupunta ako dun ano man ang mangyare!!

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

i end up feeling cheated. *wahaha..

I could feel her breath as she's sleeping next to me
Sharing pillows and cold feet
She can feel my heart; fell asleep to its beat
Under blankets and warm sheets
If only I could be in that bed again
If only it were me instead of him

Does he watch your favorite movies?
Does he hold you when you cry?
Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts?
When you've seen it a million times
Does he sing to all your music?
While you dance to purple rain
Does he do all these things?
Like I used to?

14 months and 7 days ago,
Oh I know you know how we felt about that night
Just your skin against the window
Oh we took it slow and we both know
It shoulda been me inside that car
It should have been me instead of him in the dark

Does he watch your favorite movies?
Does he hold you when you cry?
Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts?
When you've seen it a million times
Does he sing to all your music?
While you dance to purple rain
Does he do all these things?
Like I used to?

I know that love happens all the time, love
(I'm a sucker for that feeling)
You're on my mind, love
(I always end up feeling cheated)
And that happens all the time, love
(Oh darling, I know I'm not needed)

Will he love you like I loved you?
Will he tell you everyday?
Will he make you feel like your invincible
With every word he'll say
Can you promise me that this was right?
Don't throw it all away
Can you do all these things?
Will you do all these things?
Like we used to

Oh like we used to

dance with me in the purple rain, deary..





and this will be my love, love, love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hey, sa lalaking dadating sa buhay ko, kung may darating man..

Please PAKIKANTA NAMAN ITO..

alam kong hindi naman basehan ng pagmamahal itong kantang ito, pero shit, I mean shit talaga, eh. mahal na mahal ko itong kanta nito. at first I absolutely cried. ang ganda talaga ng meaning..



ang ganda ganda ganda ganda to the nth power..

I'm out in love but I can't forget the past..*

I'll let out words cause I'm sure It'll never last..

Gotten, Slash ft. Adam Levine.


*I absolutely got moved.

wala lang. muntik na akong mapaluha dahil naaalala ko na naman sya.

hey, I've been wanting to see you again... kelan ba mangyayari yon??

never an issue, always an issue.

kanina, I mean, kahapon out of nowhere, naisipan kong ilagay dito ang aking 'dear diary' noong high school.
wala, para maiba naman. it will turn out the same I guess kase di ba my posts are just about him..
at isa pa, wala pa namang nakakabasa nito, eh.

watdayatink??

*seeking for answers........

Monday, June 21, 2010

wala talaga ako dapat dito.

takte pag pinagsabay ang review vs. tumblr, facebook, blogger..

goodluck!!!
wala akong maisasagot sa prof.


I should be reviewing my notes right now.

babye na nga!!

ayokong bumagsak nang dahil lang sa pagiging makasarili ko.

dapat

NAGREREVIEW AKO PARA SA GRADED RECITATION NAMIN SA ECONOMICS BUKAS.
PERO WHAT THE PAK BAKIT ANDITO AKO SA BLOG KO?
*KELANGAN ALL CAPS PARA MA-EMPHASIZE.

MASYADO NA AKONG BITTER. ALAM KONG HINDI BAGAY SA AKIN. KASI KAHIT AKO SA SARILI AKO AYOKO RING MAGING MALUNGKOT. AYOKONG UMIYAK. SAWA NA KASI AKO. SAWA AKO SA PAULIT-ULIT. PAGOD NA AKO. TAMAD NA AKONG UMIYAK. SAWA NA KONG SABIHING NAKAMOVE ON NA AKO KAHIT HINDI TALAGA.

SHIT. I STILL LOVE YOU.

minsan naisip ko rin.

bakit pa ako magmamahal ng taong WALA NAMAN?

ok , here goes the bitter story of mine.

sabay kaming nag-OL.
ewan ko kung sino nauna sa min whatever I don't give a f***
tapos etong malupet!

online din sya!!
sino??

sino??

E DI SI FIRST LOVE.!!

kasi todo-comment sya, eh. sa gelpren nya.

too bad hindi kami friends. hindi as in HINDI KO SYA IA-ADD.
BITTER AKO EH, DI BA OBVIOUS?


and now whut? wala lang, gusto ko lang i-share na online sya kanina at sayang hindi ko sya naging friend disinsana naging magka-chat man lang sana kami.
nagkataon sanang kinumusta ko sya, tinanong tungkol sa mga buhay-buhay. ganon ko sya ka-miss. marami akong gustong itanong, marami akong tanong na alam kong sya lang ang makakasagot, gusto kong punan na nya yung karuwagang matagal nang bumabalot sa katauhan ko, ang karuwagang sya rin ang dahilan kung bakit ko pa rin to nararamdaman hanggang ngayon.


grabe, ikaw na makaranas ng true love, tignan naten.
pa-bitteran tayo. tignan natin kung sino panalo.

naniniwala naman kasi akong sya talaga ang taong minahal ko ng totoo. of course, sino ba namang hindi mai-inlab sa taong kahit na alam mong malabo kayo, pinaparamdam nya sa yo na hindi kayo magkakalayo. na kahit minsan hindi ka magiging iba sa kanya. na walang magbabago sa friendship.


kaso dumaan na nga ang dalawang taon.
ANG MAHABANG DALAWANG TAON.

na wala man lang akong alam. ni messages sa inbox ( I changed my number because of him, kase wala na rin naman akong mapapala ). ni as in..


everything that i do reminds me of you.
-sa yo talaga umiikot ang mundo ko. NOON.

pinipilit kong tigilan ka kasi alam kong may iba ka na. pero habang tumatagal ang paghihintay, kahit masakit, gusto pa rin kitang makita.

alam kong useless na. wala nang kwenta tong paghiling ko, hindi mo rin naman ako naririnig.


SALAMAT SA YO.
MOI AIMER.

sorry??

di sana kung lahat ng bagay nadadaan sa sorry, wala nang mga batas para sundin ito.
tama naman talaga si Gu Jun Pyo, di ba.??
*kaya nga tuwa ako lagi pag boys over flowers na, eh.

pag nag-sorry ka ba dun na lang matatapos yun? dun na lang ba? hanggang dun na lang ba?

*kung makadiin eh noh*

matagal nang tapos yun. naghilom na ang sugat na nilikha mo.
sana hindi ka na lang humingi ng tawad.
hello, choice ko naman yun, eh. yung nasaktan ako. kasi nga NAGING TANGA AKO.

mukhang disappointed ata ako sa kanya.

ok. I know this sounds paranoid, ano. pero shit!
I hate judging people specially pag hindi ko talaga sila kilala.
pero as usual, I prefer jumping into conclusions.
nasanay akong manghusga sa mga taong walang kinalaman sa pag-ikot ng mundo ko.

and here goes:

minsan, pag ang tao hindi mo alam ang tunay na pagkatao, pag may nararamdaman ka sa kanya, hinding-hindi mo makikita ang imperfections nya.
pero once na unti-unti mo na syang nakikilala, dun mo na nakikita ang tunay nyang kulay.

*bigla ko tuloy siyang naalala.

Monday, June 14, 2010

Laguna Trip!

ayun, masaya naman.. astig.. kabog.. hundred percent good vibe monday ang drama ko ngayon..

sa Pansol Laguna yun.. yung laging sinasabi ni tado na "The Chairman of the Board is not here, they're spending their profit in some exclusive resort in.. Pansol"

grabe dun lahat ata ng private resorts dun at yung ibang bahay, may swimming pool
yung napili namin, perfect talaga.
kumpleto sa amenities.. cable tv, billiards, videoke pool na may slide, at ang masaya talaga:
yung PICTURE-PERFECT VIEW.
astig!
at syempre saksakan ng charger.
buti nga hindi nagloko si w850, eh. ngayong linggo pa lang daw sya masisira. ay shit yung charger pala! isosoli ko na kay dennis wtf.


and then.. food? NILAGANG BAKA FTW! masaya syempre, ang dame as in ang dame talaga! walang oras na gutom, eh. palagi akong busog..

masaya, masaya talaga. bonding talaga with papa's co-workers.. sila lang dalawa ng may-ari ang may dalang anak. haha.. kabog..

sa kabutihang palad, hindi naman ako masyadong naging nognog.. kasi hindi naman ako masyado nagbabad, eh. sa VIDEOKE ako nagbabad ng bongga.

whoa now playing ALEJANDRO..

imba post to the nth power..

THIS SURVEY?
WALA, NATAWA TALAGA AKO, EH.
SA LAHAT NG SNSITES KO PINOST KO NA TO..
NGAYON KO LANG NAI-POST TO DITO KASE NGAYON KO LANG TO INOPEN ULIT.

1.Dapat ba gwapo?
-- hinde! basta mahal ko! charing.

2. Matalino?
--oo naman. tanga akong nilalang, eh. syempre. yung tao namang magpapaintindi sa akin ng hyperbola, sine cosine, etcetera.

3. Preferred Age?
--same or a year older.

4. Preferred height?
--basta wag maliit sa akin?? ano yun younger bro ko?? haha..

5. How about sense of humor?
--oo. oo. oo.. pag meron ka nyan mahal na kita!

6. How about piercing?
--ayoko! ano ka babae??! gangster??

7. Accepts you for who you are?
--who isn't? di ko yun makakasundo kung hindi.

8. Pink hair?
-- kung bagay naman at kung kamukha nya si william beckett..


9. Mushy or no?
--mushy of course! mahilig ako, eh. I mean, mahilig ako sa cheesy.

10. Thin or fat?
-- thin! ang BABOY KO NA NGA, EH. di hindi kami nagkasya sa tricycle nyan?

11. Moreno or chinito or mestizo?
-- chinitong mestiso. meron ba non?

12. Long hair or short hair?
--SHORT! WAG LANG 2X3 utang na loob.

13. Plastic or metal?
--METAL

14. Smells good?
--TINATANONG PA BA YON?? SYEMPRE!

15. Smoker?
--A MAJOR NO-NO!


16. Drinker?
-- occassional.

17. Boy-next-door type?
--50-50.

18. Musically inclined?
--NAMAN NAMAN NAMAN!! ASAN KA??

19. Plays piano?
-- OO. SYMPHONY NO. 7 KAYA MO?

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
--OO. LALO NA IF HE PLAYS ROMANSA D' AMOUR.

21. Plays violin?
--POTEK! AKIN KA NA!! DALI IUUWI NA KITA. PAKILALA KITA SA PARENTS KO.

22. Sings very good?
--HAHAO. wala na akong hahanapin. akin ka na talaga.

23. Vain?
--wag lang hihigit sa akin. baka he/she na sya non.

24. With glasses?
-- oo naman. OO, OO, OO!

25. With braces?
-- ayoko.

26. Shy type?
-- medyo. pero pag kasama ko sya dun sya mas madaldal sa kin.

27. Rebel or good boy?
-- good boy! opposites attract, di ba?

28. Active or passive?
-- active!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

29. tight or bomb?
-- bomb?

30. Singer or dancer?
-- SINGER! sayawan ko na lang sya.

31. Suplado?
--kung gwapo matino matalino, ok lang.! pag may karapatan.

32. Hiphop?
-- wag na ibitin kita patiwarik you like?

33. Earrings?
-- no.

35. Torpe?
-- ching! hindi tayo magkakatuluyan nyan.

36. Mr. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?
-- ekk.. ako nga NBSB, eh.

37. Dimples?
-- meron.

38. Bookworm?
-- OO! yung tipong pag nasa bookstore, patagalan kami.

39. Mr. love letter?
-- of course! corny akong tao, eh. madali akong madala sa eksena.

40. Makulit?
-- basta kulit-tao.

41. Flirt?
--kung may karapatan ka nga. at wag ka lang papahuli kasi pumapatay ako.

42. Poem writer?
--haha. oo?

43. Serious?
-- oo..mas madali syang kausap pag ganon.

44. Campus crush?
--hahahaha! ikaw ba to first love?!
based on my experience, kahit hindi na.

45. Painter?
-- PHOTOGRAPHER, MUCH BETTER.

46. Religious?
-- as long as he understands bible.


47. Alaskador?
--basta marunong makaramdam.

48. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
-- creative blog writer.

49. Speaks 20 languages?
--Japanese, French, what-up-kahit yan lang!

50. Loyal o faithful?
--Faithful.. <3

*alam mo grabe tawa talaga ako dito.. pramis. naka-save pa to sa notepad ko kaya tawa talaga.
mababaw akong nilalang, eh.

so what now?
hindi naman ako naghahanap ng tao na ganyan, eh. Im-this-type-of-guy-but-I-will-still-love-you-despite-of-my-imperfections ang hinahanap ko, hindi Mr. Ideal Guy..


trivia:

lahat kaya ng crush ko ganyan. charing! kaya laging walang chance..

oh wait.. hinahanap ko sa tao yung nakita ko na pero hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin nagpapakita..

*so there! jane.

woah.

ang ganda na ng blogger shemay..
palakpakan. wala sa expectation ko na gaganda pala to ng ganito..
hahaha. ang yabang ko talaga.
anyways, it's already 1 AM na pala.
pasukan na namin ngayon, eh..
7.30 ang start ng klase ko..

Thursday, June 10, 2010

minsan talaga.

wala akong kwenta.
at nagsasawa ako sa palaging walang ginagawa..

HOW CRAP!

my life is.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

anong sa tingin mo?

masarap ang single, di ba???

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

ano ba to..

to the nth power.

wohoah. I hate posers sorry. at lease alam ko hindi naman ako poser dahil unang-una, may sarili akong mukha para ipagmalaki. pangalawa, hindi basehan ang larawan para ipangalandakan sa buong mundo ang kagandahang hindi ko naman pag-aari. and lastly, I'm destroying one's privacy. so anong karapatan kong manira ng tao?

so there.
I hate posers talaga.

GET A LIFE!

biatch, back off!

*hey, bagay ba sa akin ang magtaray?


I know it's not. mabuti akong tao, eh. everybody knows.
*yabang

and then.
ayun. alam ko namang hindi bagay, so di ko na ipipilit.



*overrated.

Monday, June 7, 2010

TO-DO LIST..

*pronounced as..
/todo/


narito ang listahan ko ng mga gagawin ko bago ako mag-18.
I'm a hundred percent sure na magagawa ko to dahil.
*magyayabang na ako. ok*




*maglilibot sa UP--all alone.
(bakit? kaya ko yan, no)

*kakain ako ng shabu-shabu sa SM in three rounds.
(oo hidni ko pa nasubukan, eh.)

*be my anon hater please? gusto kong magkaroon non! *char

*will go to any tumblr meet-up. bakit masaya yun sira!






-this is only a partial list.

paricularly, specifically,

wala! ano ba to I've been in blogger kasi for years. so hindi ko na nache-check tong blog ko.
which is beri bad.


beri bad talaga!!

and then..
start na pala ng klase sa upd.
wala lang, lilipat naman ako dun after graduation for masteral studies.
hahaha. ambisyosa!
sabi nga nila libre ang mangarap, di ba. so I think, kung mangangarap ka rin lang taas-taasan mo na! para convincing..


setting goals nga for the future, eh. para hindi ka mangagapa.

ok...

to do list for my next entry!!!

Friday, June 4, 2010

dun na lang sa tumblr.

aww. sayang I can't make it sa meet-up. ngayon sana yun, eh. sa moa. sayangggggg....!!!


ulit.

suyung.............
*with matching haba nguso..
wala kasing maiiwan dito sa bahay. walang kasama si inay, walang magpapaligo kay momochang, wala akong sapat na pamasahe hanggang mall of asia, sa pasay kaya yun. yung pamasahe ko hanggang sakayan lang namin ng tricycle papuntang bayan. tapos bus hanggang cubao. bale forty pesos lahat. wala rin akong kilala masyado sa tumblr, baka naman isipin nila, fc ako, di ba. di parang nagsisi pa ako.


in short.

*di kasama sa plano ko ngayong linggo ang meetup na ito.

sa madaling salita,

*next time na lang ako pupunta. pag may pasok na, o kaya pag kasama si ate pat *potskilove* o kaya si che *iamcheriss* o yung mga close ko.

ay si concon!

*ex-cinderella. * i love her soooo much..

if it's love.

While everybody else is getting out of bed
I'm usually getting in it
I'm not in it to win it
And there's a thousand ways you can skin it

My feet have been on the floor
Flat like an idle singer
Remember winger
I digress
I confess you are the best thing in my life

But I'm afraid when I hear stories
About a husband and wife
There's no happy endings
No Henry Lee
But you are the greatest thing about me

[Chorus]
If it's love
And we decide that it's forever
No one else could do it better
If it's love
And we're two birds of a feather
Then the rest is just whenever
And if I'm addicted to loving you
And you're addicted to my love too
We can be them two birds of a feather
That flock together
Love, love
Got to have something to keep us together
Love, Love
That's enough for me

Took a loan on a house I own
Can't be a queen bee without a bee throne
I wanna buy ya everything
Except cologne
'cause it's poison
We can travel to Spain where the rain falls
Mainly on the plain side and sing
'cause it is we can laugh we can sing
Have ten kids and give them everything
Hold our cell phones up in the air
And just be glad we made it here alive
On a spinning ball in the middle of space
I love you from your toes to your face

[Chorus]

You can move in
I won't ask where you've been
'cause everybody has a past
When we're older
We'll do it all over again

When everybody else is getting out of bed
I'm usually getting in it
I'm not in it to win it
I'm in it for you

If it's love
And we're two birds of a feather
Then the rest is just whenever
Then the rest is just whenever

If it's love
And we decide that it's forever
No one else could do it better
And if I'm addicted to loving you
And you're addicted to my love too
We can be them two birds of a feather
That flock together
Love, love
Got to have something to keep us together
Love, love
Got to have something to keep us together
Love, love
That's enough for me





cheesiest song from train, as of now..
gagawa ako ng music review ng album nila.


SOON.

sinasabi ko na nga ba, eh!

n a show of hands, who has said these words before?
In a show of hearts on the floor, who has ever meant them more?

Well, I'll swallow my pride if you'll stay for the years,
And watch me spin circles as I disappear,
And hearts, they don't lie, they just quiver in fear,
As you say,

Tonight we forget everything,
And we stay the night.
If I was wrong, then I'm sorry.
I'll stop this fight,
For the night,

And this empty space left in the seat
To my right where you should be
Says a lot,
Don't let it say goodbye.
Don't let it say goodbye.
Let it say goodbye.

Forget everything,
And we stay the night.
If I was wrong, then I'm sorry.
I'll stop this fight,
For the night.
And this empty space left in the seat
To my right where you should be
Says a lot.

And today I know that tomorrow
Will shine again golden and bring
Our hearts back home.
And today I know that tomorrow
Will shine again golden and bring
Our hearts back home.

And today I know that tomorrow (And today meant nothing, 'cause you're gone)
Will shine again golden and bring (And I swear that this meant everything to me)
Our hearts back home. (But my heart's not home)
And today I know that tomorrow (And today meant nothing, 'cause you're gone)
Will shine again golden and bring (And I swear that this meant everything to me)
Our hearts back home. (But my heart's not home)







wohoa. ganda. this song means a lot..

hello, three am.

grabe, takteng alarm!
nagising tuloy lahat.
the happiest part lang talaga ay nung pinalayas ako sa kwarto sabay sabing:

:"mag-internet ka na lang dun adik, wag kang mang-istorbo dito"

at ito na nga ang ginagawa ko ngayon.

sarappppppppppppp..

ito.. ito ang tinatawag na..

tagumpay!

hahao. my unii will accompany my otou-san today..
ako sana sasama dun kaso, wala, eh. got a lot of things to do.
magpapaligo ako ng mga momochang. so there.

masaya to, masaya to, masaya to..

Thursday, June 3, 2010

sana oxygen tank ka na lang.

hindi na kasi ako makahinga, eh. pwede bang isubo mo naman sa kin yang nilalaman mo?

*oh oh oh wag kang green!*


di ko na talaga kaya.
fuck. ayoko ng ganito.

ayokong nakakakita ng ganon.

so ano bang dapat kong gawin(na naman)?

iiyak na naman ako?
magmumukmok?

magi-imo?
magwawala?
magbibitter-bitteran?



ANO???

ano bang dapat kong gawin sa nakaraang tinalikuran ko na nga, di ko pa rin makalimutan...




*wala na sa huwisyo. nakatingin sa kawalan.*

you know whut.

minsan, di ko maiwasng isipin ka. pramis.

ang sakit na ng ulo ko.

i just wanna break you down so badly.

*make damn sure - taking back sunday

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

wohoa.

plano sa pasukan:


bibili ako ng DVD ng BoF. yung malinaw kase yung akin tumatalon, eh. F.
tsaka Hana Yori. yung Japanese live action. sana nga may kasama nang final, eh.

grabe. yun talaga kasi yung pinakafavorite kong love story, eh. pramis.


naniniwala kasi ako sa 'true love'.

beh. Imma out.

eto ang nagagawa ng influence.

Episode 1

“This is not just an ordinary high school. It’s hell. Have you ever heard of F4? Once you mark as the target and get the ‘Red Card’ from them, you become a loner and the whole school starts bullying.”

Jan-di is an average high school girl whose parents operate a Laundromat. One day she delivers laundry to Shin-hwa high school, where the top 1% of the wealthy children gets to go, and accidentally saves a student from a suicidal attempt. After this incident, she is scouted to this prestigious school as a swimming athlete.
Jan-di meets four rich and good-looking boys known as ‘F4(Flower 4)’,who cause trouble to those who speak out against them. Jan-di, who has strong sense of justice, cannot bear the saucy behavior of Gu Jun-pyo, the leader of F4, and does not bring herself to his knees. The next day, she finds ‘Red Card’ inside her locker and whole school starts bulling her. Jan-di escapes to the stairway and unexpectedly meets Yoon Ji-hu, the other member of F4, and receives his handkerchief.

Episode 2

“I’m good looking, tall, smart, and rich. How can you resist me?”

Jandi gets Jihoo’s help when students attack her at the locker room. Jandi, cannot stand Junpyo’s smugness, goes to see Junpyo and kicks him right in the face. Rather than paying her back, Junpyo finds his curiosity from this girl who reminds him of his older sister, Junhee. After school finishes, unknown guards kidnap Jandi. She wakes up and notices the unbelievable things that are happening right in front of her eyes…

Episode 3

“Lucky to have a chance to know you.”
After came back from the school trip, Junpyo’s curious feeling for Jandi grows even bigger. Jandi meets Jihu, who is having a hard time because of Seohyeon, and Junpyo hears about this. Jandi worries about Jihu and goes to see him, but encounters Junpyo who is waiting for her with jealous eyes. At Seohyeon’s birthday party, Seohyeon announces that she’s going to France, leaving everything behind. When Jandi goes to say goodbye to her, she sees the scene of Jihu declaring his love for Seohyeon.

Episode 4

“Geum Jandi. From this moment, I don’t know who you are anymore.”
While Jandi and Junpyo are out on a date, they accidently lock in the cable car. Junpyo suffers from high fever and Jandi nurses him all night. This quickly spreads to the whole school and Jandi experiences totally different treat from fellow students, as Junpyo’s girlfriend. Jandi’s friend Minjee brings her to the club and she finds a guy who reminds her of Jihu. The next day morning, Jandi wakes up in the hotel room and she can’t remember what happened the night before.

Episode 5

“I’m officially announcing that from now on, Geum Jandi is Gu Junpyo’s girlfriend.”
“Objection~!”

Junpyo believes in Jandi’s innocence and treats her wounds. This moves Jandi’s heart, and Junpyo finally announces that Jandi is his girlfriend. At that moment, Jihoo, came back from Paris, appears in front of them.
During the weekend, Junpyo and the F4 take Jandi and her friend Ga-eul to New Caledonia. In there, Junpyo takes Jandi to breathtaking sceneries, but Jandi’s mind is still on Jihoo.

Episode 6

“Please tell me that you’ll be alright.”
“I should’ve met you earlier.. “

Thinking of the reminiscene with Seohyeon, Jihoo gets depressed. While Jandi is comforting him, Jihoo kisses Jandi. Junpyo bursts with rage and jealousy, and returns to Seoul alone. He announces that he is going to dismiss Jihoo from F4 and expel Jandi from school. However, the unexpected supporter Junhee, the sister of Junpyo, appears in front of the two.

Episode 7

“It’s not too late.. Just say that you like me. That’s all you need to say.”

Junpyo and Jihu square off in a sports match. The fate of Jandi and Jihu hangs on this game. They compete in horse-riding and racing, and Junpyo grows more jealous as he watches Jandi roots for Jihu. Before the final battle begins, Junpyo goes to meet Jandi.

Episode 8

“Wake up, Junpyo. You should give me a chance, too. I think now I can say the words that you wanted to hear…”

At last Jihu and Jandi go on an official date. Invited to Jihu's house, Jandi smiles bitterly at the remnants of Seohyun found all over the house. Tailing the two, Junpyo discovers that he still has feelings for Jandi. Meanwhile, Jandi rushes to the hospital upon hearing that Junpyo has been in an accident. There, she realizes her true feelings for Joon-pyo.

Episode 9

“Junpyo's world, Jandi's world…There's no such thing. If Junpyo's pace is too much, you can drag it down to your pace."

Junpyo and Jandi keep fighting and making up, and they get to know each other. However, Junpyo’s excessive presents makes Jandi hard to keep up with his pace. She continues to avoid Junpyo and Jihoo comes to the swimming pool and encourages her. Jandi and Junpyo go out on a date with Gaeul and her new boyfriend. However, uncomfortable atmosphere is developing between Jandi and Gaeul’s boyfriend.

Episode 10

“Promise me that you won’t run away from me”
“I promise you. At least, your mom won’t be the reason.”

Yijeong unexpectly sees Gaeul on the street and helps to revenge her bad boyfriend. Jandi clears up her misunderstanding about Junpyo, and the two go out on a date on Valentine’s Day. They bump into Junpyo’s mother, and Junpyo tells her not to do anything bad to Jandi.
The mother, who doesn’t even think of F4 as the friends of Junpyo, starts her next action to cut Jandi off from Junpyo, since she thinks Jandi is ridiculously improper to her son.

Episode 11

“You don’t know who he is? He’s the hot issue model, and his background is veiled in mystery.“

Jan Di starts a part time job as a model on the cover of text book, but finds out that she’s been deceived. In the dangerous moment, a mysterious man comes to the rescue of Jandi, and soon vanishes. The man turns out to be Jeha, a freshman at Shinhwa High School. Jandi and her purported fan, Jeha become friends. Unhappy with Jandi, who spends all her time working at her part-time job, Junpyo finally explodes at seeing Jandi on the magazine cover with model Haje. And Jandi finds the second “Red Card” in her locker.

Episode 12

“Jandi is the Moon that can never escape from the star called JunPyo. I would never let this Moon go, unless Big bang happens”

Jeha kidnaps Jandi and Junpyo goes to rescue her alone. Jeha and his friends beat Junpyo, but Junpyo bears it. F4 members get into the scene, finish off the situation. When Jeha tries to hit Junpyo again, Jandi protects him. The two are hospitalized, but find out the feeling for each other again. The friends go to ski trip all together, and Junpyo gives Jandi a custom made necklace. However, Jandi accidently loses it and braves the snowstorm to look for it.

Episode 13

“It feels like it’s been quite a long time when we were together. If Junpyo ignores me, I would wonder if I just dreamt about us.”

Time has passed by; F4 are now university students and Jandi is in her final year in high school. Jandi keep practices swimming and works part-time, and awaits Junpyo. Jihoo suggests her to record her message in a video and send to Junpyo, and he also takes her to the hospital and checks the condition of her shoulder. Jandi finds out that she won’t be able to swim anymore and now it’s too late to treat. Confused and toubled, Jandi goes to Macau to meet Junpyo. She gets surprised in front of the magnificent look of hotel Shinhwa, but doesn’t get overwhelmed. However, when Jandi finally gets a chance to see Junpyo, he only gives her the cold shoulder.

Episode 14

“It’s my first time.. to earn money by myself. I have so many things that I did for the first time because of you.”

The F4 comes to Macau and joins Jandi. They meet Junpyo and ask why he’s ignoring Jandi, but he only says that Jandi is no longer related to him. Jandi acts as if she’s alright, but can’t stop crying in front of Jihoo who looks like understanding everything. Jihoo helps the two to meet up, but Junpyo reconfirms the end of their relationship. When Jihoo and Jandi are about to go back to Korea, they unexpectedly meet Jihoo’s friend and invited to his house in suburbs.

Episode 15

“Listen, Junpyo will come back. Please don't give up. Trust me and give him one more chance, will you?"

Back from Macau, Jandi is having a hard time trying to brace herself up. The master of the restaurant where Jandi works, asks her to visit the old doctor’s office, who often comes to the restaurant, and this gives Jandi a fresh impression. Jandi talks to Junhee about her true feeling and Junhee asks her mother not to make Junpyo a victim. Junpyo comes back to Korea and goes to Shinhwa University. The mother invites Jandi to Junpyo’s birthday party. In there, she hears about Junpyo’s engagement with Jaekyeong, the girl who Jandi met in Macau.

Episode 16

“My name is Ha Jae-kyeong, From today, I’m your fiancé. You got it? And you better prepare yourself. I’ll be training you from now on. “

After the birthday party, Jaekyung shows her interest to Junpyo. With her easy going personality, Jaekyung becomes friend with Jandi. Although Jandi likes Jaekyung’s untainted and friendly spirit, she feels uncomfortable. Jihu runs into his grandfather while taking saddened Jandi to her volunteer work at the clinic. Yijung and Woobin fail to seclude Jaekyung from Junpyo. With Gaeul’s help, Yijung finally reunites Junpyo and Jandi.

Episode 17

“Don’t forget. True love only comes once in a life time. It’s the cruel truth.”

As the merger of Shinhwa group and JK group begins, Junpyo and Jaekyung go out on their first date. However, Junpyo reminds of Jandi every place Jaekyung wants to go. Jaekyung senses it and asks Junpyo to kiss her as the lover. Jihoo and Jandi see this while they are talking on the stairway… Yijung witnesses his father with a woman at his workroom and has a big argument. Suffering deeply, Yijung thinks of Eunjae, his first love. Gaeul signs up for the pottery class and meets Cha Eunjae, the student teacher, in there.

Episode 18

“The young lady is like a lotus flower that can even clean the mud. Treat her well. She can make you a family.”

Come back from the resort, Jandi and Jihoo visit Buddhist temple to clean their mind away. However, when Jandi returns, she finds out that her parents have decided to move to a fishing village to earn money. Junpyo wakes up and finds out that Jaekyung has prepared him the breakfast. Jaekyung says that she always dreamt of this, and Junpyo feels pity for her. Yijung tells junpyo that Jandi stopped swimming because of her shoulder injury, and Junpyo feel guilt and regret. Jandi moves to a rooftop house and is surprised when Junpyo unexpectedly shows up as her neighbour. Gaeul decides not to hide her feeling anymore and asks Yijung out on a date. Yijung rejects it but comes back to see her few days later.

Episode 19

“Junpyo. If the person who you love got into a difficult situation because of you, can you let her go?”
“You.. Will you be able to love someone else other than Seohyun?”
Jihu runs out of the clinic and wanders in the rain. Jandi's heart aches for Jihu, as she nurses him all night long. At the same time, Junpyo awaits Jandi at the rooftop house. Yijung takes Gaeul out to the club, chats with other ladies, and makes her feeling uncomfortable. However, already knows the pain in his heart, Gaeul pities him instead. After finding out the whereabouts of Junpyo, his mother confines him to the house. Then she goes to Jandi to humiliate her in front of everyone. The next day, F3 and Gaeul visit Jandi to comfort her and they start rooftop room renovation. Jaekyeong takes Junpyo out from home and joins them, and when they all start ‘the truth game’, the tension starts rising.

Episode 20

“I wasn’t the air. I was just a breeze that you mistook for air. A breeze.. Once it passes by, it can’t return to the place it already left.”

Jandi becomes Junpyo’s personal maid and controls over Junpyo’s naughty behavior. While she was in Junpyo’s room to wake him up, Jaekyung and Junpyo’s mother enter the room and get shocked to see her. The mother wants to kick her out from the house immediately, but the head maid and Jaekyung intervene in. Seokyeong collapses at the clinic and Jandi takes him to Jihoo’s house. Jandi tries to reconcile the two and now they start to live under the same roof.
Gaeul now knows that Eunjae was Yijung’s first love, and tries her best to bring them together.

Episode 21

“There is a girl I like. She will be the one until the day I die. Do you still want to marry me?
“I know that girl is Jandi. But knowing that you are like this, I want to marry you even more.”

Junpyo’s mother rushes the wedding, and Jaekyung asks Jandi to be her bridesmaid. On the day before the wedding, F4, Jandi and Gaeul arrived at Jeju Island for the wedding, and the complication between Junpyo, Jaekyung, Jandi and Jihoo reaches the climax. Junhee advises Junpyo not to do something that he is going to regret. Junpyo goes down on his knees and ask Jaekyung to break off the engagement.

Episode 22

“Why that was me? I ‘m not pretty, not rich and have no fame. Why did you like me?”
“You don’t need anything because I have them all. All you need to do is just being Geum Jandi, yourself.”

The wedding ceremony finally starts and Junpyo enters in. However, Jaekyung maps out a plan and ruins the wedding. Junpyo and Jandi sneak off to the resort and spend time together. Jaekyung returns the necklace to Jihoo and leaves to New York on the next day. Jandi and Junpyo’s happy moment is about to fall apart, since the break off brings a crisis to Shinhwa group. Now Junpyo’s mother anger is towards Jandi.

Episode 23

“I can endure hunger and coldness, but there’s one thing I cannot stand. Seeing my loved ones suffer because of me.”

With Gaeul’s effort, Yijung now finds out Eunjae’s declaration that he had missed three years ago. Gaeul brings Yijung to the rooftop, uncovers his eyes, and the message magically appears in front of him.
Junpyo’s mother finds out about Junpyo and Jandi are secretly dating, and starts to attack the people around Jandi. Finding out who fall them into a difficult situation, Jandi makes up her mind.

Episode 24

“How did you now that I’m here?”
“I could heard it. I kept a night watch every night, in case I’d miss it.”

Jihu finds out Jandi’s whereabouts. He expects Junpyo to come with him, but Junpyo disappoints Jihoo again by refusing to go. Jandi arrives at the fishing village, but people expect her as the fiancé of the heir of Shinhwa Group. When it reveals as false, Jihu suddenly appears in front of her and settles the situation. Jihu declares his feeling for Jandi that he suppressed for long time and Junpyo looks at them from far back.. and suddenly!

Episode 25

“Gu Jun Pyo, who I liked and who loved me, is no more there."

Jandi leaves a lunch box for Junpyo, who lost the memories about her. Jun-pyo almost remembers something about Jan-di as he eats the lunch, but Yumi lies takes crushes Jandi’s last hope. Jandi and F4 are invited Junpyo and Yumi’s pool party. In there, they hear surprising news.


*BOF ep guides..

ok. so this must be addiction, eh?

Boys Before Flowers Original Soundtrack: Part 1

* Artist: Various
* Language: Korean
* Publisher: Doremi Media Co.
* Release Date: January 23, 2009

Tracklisting

1. Paradise - T-Max
2. Because I'm Stupid - SS501
3. Do You Know - Someday
4. Stand By Me - SHINee
5. Lucky - Ashily
6. Starlight Tears - Kim Yoo Kyung
7. A Little - Suh Jin Young
8. One More Time - Tree Bicycles
9. I Know (Saxophone Inst.) - Lee Jung Sik
10. Dance with me (Inst.)
11. Blue Flower (Inst.)
12. So sad (Inst.)
13. Opening Title (Paradise Intro.) - T-Max

[edit] Boys Before Flowers Original Soundtrack: Part 2

* Artist: Various
* Language: Korean
* Publisher: Doremi Media Co.
* Release Date: March 16, 2009

Tracklisting

1. Say Yes - T-Max
2. Wish Ur My Love - T-Max feat. J
3. Yearning Heart - A'ST1
4. Making A Lover - SS501
5. What Should We Do - Jisun
6. Love Is Fire - KARA
7. Love U - Howl
8. Almost Like Love - Brand New Day
9. Tears Are Falling - Lee Sang Gon
10. Cellogic (Inst.) - Kim Young Min
11. 다가가다 (Inst.) - Dong Yo
12. Be Strange (Inst.) - Park Hye Ri
13. For The Sake Of Love (Inst.) - Park Hye Ri

[edit] Boys Before Flowers OST 2.5 - F4 Special Edition

* Artist: Various
* Language: Korean
* Publisher: Mnet Media Co.
* Release Date: March 18, 2009

Tracklisting

1. A Thing Called Happiness - Kim Hyun Joong
2. Something Happened To My Heart - A&T (A'st1 & T-Max)
3. Fight The Bad Feeling (Ballad Ver.) - T-MAX
4. Fight The Bad Feeling (Dance Ver.) - T-MAX





yun na yon. next post.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

if I was wrong then I'm sorry.

pero wala naman akong natatandaang may mali akong nagawa.
at sana nga wala.

pagod na akong sisihin ang sarili ko.
tama na. nasanay akong laging napagbubuntunan.
sana naman this time, hindi na.

sawa na akong maging 'filler'.
sa tagalog, panakip butas.

sabi yan ng isang UP stud sa magic, ganyan daw kasi ang sitwasyon nya ngayon.
kaya sya nagpa-tarot card read.

sana.

my 500th post as a gift for the 23rd.

pahalakpakan.

*claps with xyrus on my lap*

next year it will be my 1000th.
dunno if I'll be as active as this.

goodmorning philippines.

spreading good vibes.

oo nga pala 18th birthday ko na this year. *according to my sched, wala kaming pasok. yey*
plans? wala. simpleng kainan lang dito. I hate 18 roses, 18 candles, etcetera.
just a VIDEOKE and my mom's CARBONARA will do.

o kaya..




ONE WHOLE DAY TRIP TO SM NORTH.
or MOA, LUNETA, MAKATI *papakaligaw ako dun*, UPD campus, etc.

of course with my full-equipped w850 ewan ko lang kung buhay pa sya non.
o kaya a camera.
o kaya maraming pera.


o kaya kung may significant other na ako.
sama ko na lang sya! haha. para may epal.
ganong trip.

eh ano naman..

kung hindi kita sa pagharap ko sa bagong mundo?
e di ba, makasama man kita o hindi, wala namang nagbabago?
kasi, LAGI KA NAMANG WALA SA TABI KO.

no whut.

now whut.

I'm ready to cut my left wrist.
goodbye world.

hold on before it's too late.

or until we leave this behind..

ewan mali na naman ata ang lyrics..

ayun. finally found the complete lyrics of a call to arms.

another goodvibe na naman.
salamat.

Monday, May 31, 2010

sana umulan na lang buong araw.

oo. ayoko ng mainet!
kaso yung assets ko baka mabasa.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

hanggang bukas na lang ang langit.

kung lilisan ka lang.
sinong papalit sa iyo?
sayang, sayang.

-sayang, stonefree.

yan ang nagpe-play sa utak ko ngayon eh.

tamad ako gumawa ng entry, eh.

tsaka presently in PMS ako.

*kung di ka babae at di mo alam, wag ako ang tanungin mo*

ay hindi.
presently nagdadalaga pala ako.
kaya badtrip ako ngayon.


yun. so now you know?

"hindi ko naman ginusto, eh." --wah ganyan naman lagi, eh. so much for your lame excuses.

bahahaha. if only my otou-san could say that.
grabe, muntik-muntikan na naman ako kanina.
buti na lang.
bad vibes agad si ama, eh. umagang-umaga.
kaya yown. kasalanan ko naman kase, eh.
late na ako nagising.
what the heck. ano ba. kasalanan ko na rin bang nung nag-snooze ako ng 3.50 eh hindi gumana yung alarm?
argh. sabi ng eighth sense ko bakit ko daw kailangan pang isnooze ang alarm clock eh may exact time naman.

minsan talaga may angkin akong katamaran, at hindi ko na rin alam kung hanggang saan at kailan ang limitasyon.

grabe. I was like, silent treatment talaga.
speechless.
baka may masabi lang kasi ako di ba baka masampolan pa ako.

so there. story finished.
ayokong simulan ang araw ko na puro BV. mahirap na. blessed pa naman ako kahapon.

cross-post na ba?

Thursday, May 27, 2010

wag mong pahirapan ang sarili mo.

kung alam mo naman ang dahilan kung bakit ka nahihirapan.
o kung dahil sa isang tao kaya ka nagkakaganyan.

try mo kayang.

tanungin mo muna kung ano at sino at kung paano ka makakaalis sa kadenang pilit na tinatali sa yo kahit ayaw mo.

dibadiba.

so inspired to day.

thankyow.

*I should be. Things will work out. *

bumilis ang internet.

mula nang binura ko yung personang yon.
taragis.

you know.

ayoko na ng ganito.

everyday I frequently rant about my life.

nakakasawa.

di ba pwedeng puro positive muna.

oo na. positive nga sa labas..
e ano yung nasa loob.
puro polusyon.
hayst.

napakawalang kwenta talaga ng buhay ko.
isa lang ang palaging nasa tabi ko--si God lang talaga.

woke up with overflown tears.

nakakainis.
wala kasi silang alam sa nararamdaman ko, eh.


kaya pinagtabuyan na naman ako.
in short, outside de kulambo.


Wednesday, May 26, 2010

anak ng tootoot talaga.

am I really that 'unworthy'?

ano daw.?

ewan. ayoko ng ganito.

what my okaa-san has said yesterday really stuck in my head..:

"wag mong isisi sa ibang tao yung pagkakamaling nagawa mo."

grabe, nang dahil sa sinampay, naging makata ang nanay ko??

*palakpakan.*

pero sa totoo lang, na-move ako.

walang kwenta?? pt. 2


nag-try lang ako mag-crop using photoscape. as usual, maliit lang naman ito, so mabilis lang mai-upload.

ayoko ng ganito.

di bale nang ako ang magka-loose bowel movement, eh.
di bale nang sleepless nights.

wag lang si momochang.
aka Xyrus.
grabe please naman paabutin natin sya ng kahit five years lang...
3 years old na sya sa July 8.
so 15 na sya.
kasi multiply by 5. di ba.

ok. do the usual thing na lang.
pray ko na lang siguro to.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

kalokohan.

kung tigasubaybay ka ng blog ko, maoobserve mo na bakit wala nang music dito?
nge, ano to..
kase, kase, kase,

banal para sa kin tong blog na to. so why am I daring to put such unnecessary accessories here?

*aww puro doubles..


kase, kase, kase.

I am SELECTING/CHOOSING the best tracks.
kaya yon.
matagalan akong pumili ng kanta.

I wish sana, yung nasa tumblr ko mapalitan na rin.

sana nga MAGKAIBA PAG PI-NOST KO NA.

palagi kaseng magkapareho tong dalawang to, eh. tsk.

ok Im'ma out.
ayokong mapagalitan, eh.


babye..

sayonara.

sana nga ganon na lang kadali, di ba.

o hano na naman hito?

(ano daw?)

ganito siguro talaga ako everytime it rains.
"How could you do it,
Oh I, I never saw it coming,
Oh, oh, I need an ending
So why can't you stay just long enough to explain..

You can take your time..

TAKE MY TIME."

-When it Rains, Paramore.



bahaha, tumblr's nagla-lag na naman.
hano ba naman tong haraw na hito??

GOOD VIBES MGA KAPATID.
SALAMAT PO LORD SA MAGANDANG SUNRISE..


*smiles

bakit ka pa pumatak?

kung wala rin namang pagbabagong naganap?
-emote-emote ko KANINA, oo kaninang ala-una ng madaling araw.
umulan kase, feeling ko nga ang lakas, kase tipong galit na galit yung butas naming bubong.
feeling ko lang naman. I was like 'hala ka pano na yung assets and liabilities na naiwanan ko dun sa tindahan namen??'

tapos si okaa-san, ayon. gising na gising na naman. kaya pati ako, gising din.
magne-net na nga lang sana ako, eh. kaso asa pa ako pag umuulan, hambagal kaya, tapos, baka mahuli pa ako ni otou-san.
di lalo akong dedbols nyan.


share ko lang yung pighati ko kagabe.

pero rejoice pa rin kase I prayed na sana umulan ng bongga,
hayun at natupad naman. kaso wala. eh. imba pa rin the powers of haring araw.

so there.

I look back to the one and only summertime.

wala, ang ganda, eh.


haha. first time ito..

I look back to the one and only summer time
And my girl was the envy of every friend of mine
She slept safely in my arms
We were so young and invincible

Closed lips, she was never one to kiss and tell
Those trips in the summer never went so well
Young love is such dumb love
Call it what you want it was still enough

And you're still out of me reach
And you're still all of the things
That I want in my life
How could I ask you to leave me?

And we were just kids in love
The summer was full of mistakes we wouldn't learn from
The first kiss stole the breath from my lips
Why did the last one tare us apart?

Our breath smelled of cigarettes and alcohol
We'd walk down the beach counting every star
Our hearts beat inside our chest
Leaving us gasping for every breath

Her smile with the wind blowing through her hair
Was so contagious in the air
So satisfying and I'm still smiling

And you're still out of me reach
And you're still all of the things
That I want in my life
How could I ask you to leave me?

And we were just kids in love
The summer was full of mistakes we wouldn't learn from
The first kiss stole the breath from my lips
Why did the last one tare us apart?

We're falling down, can we pick up the pieces?
We're at an all time low, how do we get it back?
We're falling down, can we pick up the pieces?

We're falling down, can we pick up the pieces now?

And we were just kids in love
The summer was full of mistakes we wouldn't learn from
The first kiss stole the breath from my lips
Why did the last one tare us....

We were just kids in love
The summer was full of mistakes we wouldn't learn from
The first kiss stole the breath from my lips
Why did the last one tare us apart?

We were just kids in love
The summer was full of mistakes we wouldn't learn from
The first kiss stole the breath from my lips
Why did the last one tare us apart?


kumakanta na sa bath.

Monday, May 24, 2010

I hate you 'LOADING'.

bwiset. ayoko talaga sa lahat yung pinaghihintay ako sa wala.


tapos at the end, biglang..

"SERVER NOT FOUND"

o kaya

"THE CONNECTION WAS RESET"

pakme.

ale-alejandro, ale-alejandro.

sorry ganyan ko lang talaga kamahal si gaga.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

like saturday night I'll be gone. before you knew that I was there.

kileg.

ka-chat ko sya.
kaso nag-goodnight lang.
ok lang yun.
nasanay na ako sa adik na yon.

wala. minsan may mga bagay na maliet na grabe kung magpasaya sa ken.
sya lang. makita ko lang sya, ok na, eh.


*and then he went offline.


ok lang. Im'ma sleep! oyasumi mga kapatid.

a prick!

life?
all about surprises.
unexpected.
full of what-ifs.


masaya naman ang buhay, ah. kaso pag nawala, nakakatakot.
masakit ang mawalan. para na ring sarili mong buhay ang kinitil dahil sa pakiramdam na yon.

loss.

kaya nga nawalan. the heck. ano ba.



my point of view is that.

wag mong sayangin yung bagay na binigay sa yo pero hindi mo naman talaga tunay na pag-aari.
kasi may tunay na may-ari nyan. at si God yun.

kaya nga sabi 'live life to the fullest', di ba.

grabe kaya yang quote na yan kung maka-impact naman sa ken.

happy-go-lucky? I am. I guess.

kaya kung gugustuhin mo pang magkaroon ng sense ang buhay mo, wag mo nang basahin ang entry na ito.
napaka-walang kwenta kase.


thank yow.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

no wonder.

wala.
I just don't wonder.

why.
how.
what.
when.

tamad mode.

thank yowwwwwwwwwwwww..

what I love when I'm in tumblr.

-friends. lalo na yung mga mababait..

-posts. automatic reblog.

-tweaking profile.

-motivation.

etc. etc.

escape.

throw it away forget yesterday,
we'll make a great escape.

sana. I really, really hope so.

gusto ko nang tumakas sa anino ng nakaraan.
sa nakaraang matagal kong pinangarap kalimutan.
sa nakaraang pinagkaitan ako ng pagkakataong maging masaya.

getching?

who would've thought na makakalimot ako?
ang tagal ko kayang ininvest tong panahon na to.
ang daming sleepless nights, tulala moments, et cetera.

tapos dumating na sya, finally.
at ang sarap pala sa pakiramdam.

isang taon. isang taon na rin pala ang lumipas mula noon.

*nakita daw sya ng Ada nung birthday ni Steph, eh. dapat kasama kaya ako dun, di lang ako pinayagan ni Ina na umalis kase gagabihin ako. tsaka sinabi ni ella. grabe. shocked kung shocked eh. tipong.." weh.. nakita nyo talaga sya?" haha. nakakatawa talaga ako pag sya ang topic na pinag-uusapan. tipong.. laging curious.. ganon.

ano. di na ko mage-expect na makikita sya ulit.
that's life. at sana maging masaya na sya sa buhay nya.

isa pa, nasanay na rin naman ako nang wala sya, kahit na minsan malungkot talaga kasi bahagi sya ang alaala.

ok. tama na to.


Im'ma go.


we had a right love at the wrong time..

whoa nakalimutan ko agad the lyrics.

ang sarap kaya mag-emo ngayon. parang nasa kabila akong dimensyon ng mundo.



whan you're looking for the words to say.

It's winter again, a white washed and frozen sky?
I came to the door, eyes maladjusted from the light,
but your voice rang clear.
You said, 'For all I thought I'd ever need,
it's hard to face the holidays without.'
Well I've left my last message on your machine
It's hard to face the holidays
when you're looking for the words to say.
So you've found a friend.
You spend all your cold nights with him,
but if I was there, then I'd wonder why you still wear my jacket closed
with traces of my scent.
I'd say, 'For all I thought I'd ever need,
it's hard to face the holidays without.'
Well I've left my last message on your machine
It's hard to face the holidays
when you're looking for the words to say.
So stay with me here.
Nose to nose, cold enough to see as our breath slowly escapes
and exchanges from my lungs to yours, from your mouth to mine.
For all I thought I'd ever need,
it's hard to face the holidays without.
Well I've left my last message on your machine
it's hard to face the holidays
When you're looking for the words to say.
When you're looking for the words to say.




nang dahil sa kantang to?
mas lalo akong na-motivate na pumunta sa Japan.

wintery Japan, soon..:)

nakakaka-miss.

You were the only face I'd ever known.
I was the light from the lamp on the floor,
and only as bright as you wanted me to be.
But, I am no gentleman, I can be a prick,
and I do regret more than I admit.
You have been followed back to the same place I sat with you drink for drink.
Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist.

Everything we had, everything we had,
everything we had, everything we had is no longer there.

It was the only place I'd never known.
Turned off the light on my way out the door.
I will be watching wherever you go,
through the eyes of a fly on the wall.
You have been followed back to the same place I sat with you drink for drink.
Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist.

Everything we had, everything we had,
everything we had, everything we had is no longer there, longer there.

You saw for yourself, the way it played out.
For you, I am blinded.
For you, I am blinded, for you.

I am no gentleman, I can be a prick.
And I do regret more than I admit.
You have been followed back to the same place I sat with you drink for drink.
Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist.

Everything we had, everything we had,
everything we had, everything we had.
Everything we had, everything we had,
everything we had...

I'll be with you wherever you go,
through the eyes of a fly on the wall.



sabi nila, etong uri ng mga ganitong kanta, malulupit.
ito yung mga pa-bitter, pa-miss, etcetera, etcetera.

pero damn!



I SUPER SUPER LOVE IT.

*di kaya dahil based on personal experience din ito?
or I'm just better now, at nasa road na ako ng acceptance.

ay matagal na yun.
wag na nating pag-usapan.

ang pinakaayoko kasi sa lahat yung binabalikan pa yung mga pangyayaring wala namang koneksyon sa kasalukuyan.


ooh baby baby it's a wild world..

wala. biglang pumasok sa utak ko, eh. know what? supposedly,I'm going to put here my freaking rough drafts na sinulat ko pa a week ago. kaso anong nangyayari sa akin? tinatamad ako!

o pano? punta muna ako sa tumblr?


oo na oo na. mamaya na. gigisingin ko na lang si papa mga 5.30. linggo naman ngayon, eh. dapat nga magpa-late na lang sya sa work.

*gusto ko nang kumain ng pandesal. maraming maraming pandesal.


*hungry.

Friday, May 21, 2010

I was nearly scared to death..

why you left in paragraphs..?


ang ayoko sa lahat yung may nakatingin sa ginagawa ko. sorry for being rude, ha. nawalan tuloy ako ng gana magsulat.
f.








Sunday, May 16, 2010

I saw you with the moon last night.

ano daw?

anyways, grabe, napa-p****** ako kagabe.

venus-moon eclipse ba kamo?
ayun ok naman.
masaya.
speechless ako, eh.
hanggang ngayon di ako makamove-on.

sobrang makawish kasi ako.
grabe.


first time ko kaya makakita ng ganon sa tanang buhay ko.
ganito ako kaignorante, and I'm sorry.


there!


malaki ang tiwala ko sa buwan.
sya ang PATRON KO SA PAG-IBIG.

(ano daw????)

break na kami. badtrip!

ako? gustung-gusto kong nakakarinig ng mga ganyang kwento.
pramis.
magkayabangan na, ha. pero, I've never entered a relationship, so hindi ko rin alam kung anong pakiramdam ng break-up.

*excuse me, what had happened is invalid. hahaha*

then!
pag may lalapit sa yo.
"bon, break na kami, anong gagawin ko??"
I replied..
"tol, hindi pa katapusan ng mundo. andito pa ako"






ganyan ako kapilosopo pag may taong maayos magtanong sa akin.
kaya ikaw, if you like to make kwento of your life to me, sana man lang, eh yung nasa katinuan ako (ok lagi namang wala, I already knew it)



ok, CROSS POST NA.
MIGRATE NA AKO SA TUMBLR.

Saturday, May 15, 2010

"hindi ako malandi..

umiibig lang."

mula dito.


galing, galing. tuwa to the max talaga ako nung nabasa ko to.
parang nabigyan ng hustisya ang pagiging adik ko sa mga crush ko..


love it, love it.

kill me now cause I'm lovin' it.


kakainis!!
takte, tuwang-tuwa talaga ako.

tawa pa bon, ikaw lang naman.

blangko.

nananabik at parang tuliro..
blangko.

basta blangko! forgot the lyrics already.

at ngayon blangkong-blangko ang utak ko.
parang kagabi lang, grabe sa sobrang pre-occupied ng utak ko, I wrote two entries in my steno diary.

hello, achievement ko na yun, kung tutuusin. utang na loob naman.

kaso. ngayon. alas-3.55. sa totoo lang, pwede kong i-off yung snooze nung alarm ko, eh. kung talagang gusto kong makatulog ng bongga. o kaya, I just overslept, kahapon. langya. ikaw na matulog ng 10 AM-4 PM straight! kaya badtrip sa akin si ina, eh.

and this entry is blank for about 20 minutes. ganito ako kabored.

pwede nyo na po ako ilambitin patiwarik, o kaya ibalik nyo na po ako sa nanay ko.

Friday, May 14, 2010

it's a quarter after one.

I'm all alone and I need you now.....


ikaw na magkaroon ng lss na pa-emo talaga.

putek! kalat sa livefeed yung mga fan page.

dammit.
pag ako nabwiset tatanggalin ko to.


"I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now"..



sana nga lagi na lang ako basag.
sawa na kong tumakas sa problema.
pwede ba kahit ngayon lang?
harapin ko to ng wala sa tamang kamalayan?
grabe. ang hirap magpanggap.


oi oi oi.
wag kang magalala. di lang ikaw ang problema ko.


assuming ka masyado.

pheesh.


*boredom kills. mamamatay na talaga ako.*


NP.

ayun, walang kamatayang airplanes part two na naman.

ikaw na maboring. tignan natin kung di ka masarapan sa kantang paulit-ulit.


I can really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now.

oo na sige na ikaw na bonipasya.


gaaaah.

ayoko na..

/wrist

parang nakakagalit yung livefeed ko. badtrip.

nakakagalit talaga.

basta. parang masisira araw ko ngayon..

*sayang ang panaginip. pilitin mong gumising. ang buhay ay hindi paraiso..*
-harinawa, hale.




--iyan na ang senyales ng taong walang magawa.

and now, I deeply fucked up.


jane!


kung ganito ako kawalang kwenta, sorry na.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

na na na na everyday..

it's like my iPod stuck on replay..
shawty's like a melody in my head..


o di ba pa-RnB mode muna.
tamad ako ngayong araw, eh.
palakpakan.

para namang bago pa sa akin ang katamaran.

grabe maloloka na ata ako.


oo na migrate na nga muna ako sa tumblr.

If I were a boy..

hahaha.

don't read this nakakahiya..
hahaha.


basta. siguro pag naging lalake ako.

palagi akong half-naked.
*hello, ang inet kaya ng panahon.

o kaya siguro payatot ako.
macho. haha. hindi mataba katulad ng hetsura ko ngayon.

ahm ano pa ba.

siguro nagwu-work na ako.
kating-kati talaga ako magtrabaho. kasi amboring kaya dito sa bahay ikaw na ang tulog buong maghapon..tapos gigising ka lang para lumamon, gumamit ng kubeta, o kaya pag may epal na tumawag sa cellphone.


ah.
baka hindi ko nakayanan yung circumcision.
*bakit green topic ba to?
kasi, di ba. pero sabi nga nila, buti nga daw sa lalake, isang beses lang ang sakit.
e sa aming mga babae, buwan-buwan. o sige na ikaw na magkaroon ng buwanang dalaw.


at lastly.
baka playboy ako. hahaha. ambisyosa.





and this walang-kwentang entry ends.

walang kwenta talaga.

Im'ma go.

alam mo yun? I've been thinking for hours..

tapos itong kapirasong kaalaman lang ang papasok sa utak ko?


*parang everytime I write an entry here, parang laging may tinatawag na ka-brutalan, ah.*

oo nga.
wala na akong maisip na matinong entry.

magpakamatay na lang kaya ako.

*oh wait. sinong magmemaintain ng blog ko?*

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

ok. will be watching the latter part.

oo na hanggang 7.30 lang ako dito.
new-improved na tong pc namen, eh.
me matic time machine na.

biglang mawawala yung internet pag 7.31 na. o di ba.
kasi pag 7.31 hindi pa ako out, kukunin yung connector.

para lang daw mawala yung kaadikan ko.

takte ano?

bakit drug addict ba ako? humihigop ba ako ng tawas? lumalanghap ba ako ng mariwana? bumibili ba ako ng rugby para amuyin lang?

takte.
sa pasukan ba maggaganito pa rin?
e baka nga pag nagpasukan na, araw-araw na akong wala.
diba?
fvck.










fvck I am.
parang gusto ko tuloy pa-lowdan ng mobile internet yung phone ko.





pagkatapos ng kabadtripan.

ayun masaya naman. at congratulations to myself!

wala.

hahaha.. 3 AM pala, ha!! fvck

what the f talaga.
alarm-alarm ka pa.

shockness.

o ito na hindi ko na mapigilan ang emosyon ko..








o ayan!!
lss ko maghapon magdamag!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

airplanes part two..

wala pa atang lyrics nun, eh. naghahanap pa ako. shetness.

ikaw na ang mag-online nang walang..

elektrik pan!

oo,. wala akong elektrik pan ngayon.
imagine me in a deep sweat, kamusta naman.
hahaha. pinagpapawisan.


there!
wala na akong matinong magawa sa buhay ko.
wala nang mapag-aksayahan ng oras.

oh. lemme share this track..

'I WANNA BE A BILLIONAIRE SO FREAKIN' BAD.'



'OH EVERY TIME I CLOSE MY EYES.
I SEE MY NAME IN SHINING LIGHTS.
A DIFFERENT CITY EVERY NIGHT, OH I, I SWEAR.
THE WORLD BETS ARE PREPARED.
OH AND I'M A BILLIONAIRE!!!'

oh yeah. exaj mode na, beybe!


alam mo.

kung gusto mong matutunan ang mga bagay-bagay, pag-aralan mo.

kung gusto mong maging matibay ang samahan ninyong dalawa, matuto kang pagkatiwalaan yung taong pinaglaanan mo.

kung gusto mong makinig ng matinong musika, bakit hindi mo subukang maghanap ng matinong radio station? o kaya hanapin mo ako. musically-inclined ako, baka hindi mo naitatanong. lols.

kung gusto mo ng matinong kausap, wag ako. humanap ka ng taong may mapapala ka at bigla kang mapapaisip sa mga pinagsasabi nya.

kung gusto mo ng simpleng buhay, wag mong isisi sa ibang tao ang lahat ng failures.


kung kailangan mong kalimutan ang isang tao, wag mo nang isipin ang lahat ng nangyari sa inyo. kasi lahat ng bagay may dahilan. at sya ay isa nang bahagi ng nakaraan.

kung kailangan mong maging totoo para lang masabi ang nararamdaman mo, wag kang matakot. wala pang nakukulong sa taong nagsasabi ng totoo. kung hindi ka nila maintindihan, wala silang magagawa.

kung kailangan mong magpakatanga para sa kanila, okey lang. wag mo lang sobrahan. kung gusto mo talagang maging tanga para sa kanila, yan na magiging tingin nila sa yo habambuhay. kaya please lang, kung kaya mong isalba ang sarili mo, gawin mo na ngayon pa lang.

kung gusto mo ng matinong payo, seek the Bible. yun lang.



and then. tinamad ako bigla.



title?

here goes.

kung gusto mo ng buhay ng sa tulad ko. narito ang ilang kaparaanan para mapabuti ito:

*shetness ang haba.

basta.

Monday, May 10, 2010

la lang..

honestly, ayoko talaga si Noynoy.

basta, di bale nang si Erap na haydowl ko na ngayon dahil sa bigote at pagiging kaliwete nya. hahahahahahahahaha..


o kaya si Bilyar na tunay na mahirap at tunay na may malasakit at may kakayahang gumawa ng sariling pangalan.

no wonder, ang lakas talaga ng impluwensya ng media sa tao, eh.


when I was 13, I had my first love.

wala. tawa ako ng tawa sa fan page na yan, eh..
hahahahahahaha.

totoo naman, I met him when I was 13.
pwehehehe.
enough na nga!
baka mapahaba na naman tong maisulat ko.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

kung mangangarap rin lang ako.

di tataasan ko na, di ba?
ganito ako ka-ambisyosa.
at naniniwala akong walang makakaabot niyan.

bwehehehe. megalomaniac.

echos lang. what I'm trying to say is that, parang yung pangarap kong makatuntong sa Japan ay napakaimposible.
parang malabong mangyari.


sabi nga sa isang quote na nabasa ko:
if you keep on dreaming, it will turn into reality.


o di ba tawagin mo na kong ilusyonada.
tawagin mo na akong ambisyosang mapangarapin.
pero wala, eh.


tipong, I'm willing to do anything.
echos.
matupad lang yun.

kaso.
syempre I have to finish my purpose here muna.
mag-aaral, ga-graduate, magte-take ng board examination, magte-take ng civil service exam.
pag nakapasa, then magma-masteral ako.
thinking of taking up MA Psychology(kung pwede), MA English, MEM, o kaya mag-aaral na lang ulit ako ng Psychology sa pangarap kong institusyon--Unibersidad ng Santo Tomas.
o kaya sa UP kung sobrang talino ko na. bwehe.

tapos.

tapos, magtuturo muna ako syempre, sa Alma Mater ko.
namern. who says I can't teach TLE? e yun yung major ko, eh. hahaha.

tapos, mag-aaral na ako ng Nihonggo. Japanese language syempre.

tapos. magpapakuha na ako sa auntie ko. para matuloy na ang pangarap kong makapag-Japan ng bongga. o kaya. basta. may mga relatives naman kami na taga-doon. so I think, may background na ako in case na matuloy nga.

tapos.
tapos.. yun. dun ako magtatrabaho. as english tutor, o kaya tech teacher, o kaya, home economics instructor, o kaya, singer. malay natin. o kaya, cashier sa Starbucks, crew sa McDonald's, crew sa isang sikat na Pinoy resto, gasoline girl. basta. masarap ang maraming ginagawa pag nasa ibang lupain ka. tama, di ba?

hmm. para naman..

ma-achieve ko na yung nirvana ko.
wanna know the definition of nirvana?
yun yung tinatawag na "kaganapan" ng tao.

yun yung extent purpose. kumbaga. basta kung maiintihan mo o kaya para mas elaborated, i-Wikipedia mo na lang.


of course, unii-san will be going to Canada after two years, kasi dun nya gusto dahil may snow.

tapos ako? ewan ko. pag natapos na ang purpose ko, tsaka na ako aalis.
para wala akong maiwanang bitterness sa puso ko.


diba diba.
o at least nai-post ko na yung ambisyosang pangarap ko.dito sa blogspot.
kasi nasa tumblr archives yung iba.
kung kaya mong hanapin, goodlak!

http://bonipasya.tumblr.com/

there.
yun lang. will be posting my add-ons later.
ja-ne!!!!

6.28

"kaytagal kitang hinanap.
halos ikamatay.
nakaukit ka sa aking palad.
mawalay ka, mawalay ka.
di ako papayag."


-Patunayan, Silent Sanctuary.

*tagal ko ngang hinanap. wala namang nangyari. bumalik lang yung dati.


OK. sneak peek pa lang yan nung gagawin ko, no. trailer, kumbaga.
wala. wala na kasi akong maisip na matinong maisusulat..


abangan na lamang..................................................................